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Old May 15, 2016, 07:30 PM
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I feel like I'm trying to be honest with T, like we had talked about during our last session. I've been monitoring what I say because I worry about how she will see me, or if she will be overwhelmed by me. I'm trying.

I'm feeling horrible tonight. Depression has escalated severely. I'm not suicidal but needed to reach out, like she's encouraged me to do in the past.

I left a voicemail for her. She called and left a voicemail for me, basically saying that if I really thought that talking to her would help, to call at a specific time. If I couldn't do that, to go to the ER.

She's never said that to me.

I'm so sad. I could be overreacting, but now, in this moment, I needed her to be kind, even if it was just kindness over the voicemail. I feel like I was slapped in the face. She's my psychiatrist too, so I can't just quit therapy because I know I need my medications.

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Old May 15, 2016, 07:35 PM
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That sounds really hard. Reaching out is hard enough but to be met with something that appears cold and unwelcoming is tough, I know. I would call at the specified time and see what happens, you can always hang up if it isn't what you want on the other end. Your T may just be rubbish at leaving voice mails.
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Old May 15, 2016, 07:39 PM
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It sounds like she is taking you seriously, so isn't that a good thing? I guess without the voice component, I can't tell what it was about her message that felt like a slap.

Give her a call at the appointed time and see how that goes?
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Old May 15, 2016, 07:40 PM
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I'd just call her. Some people, me included, keep voicemails as short and businesslike as possible.
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Old May 15, 2016, 09:41 PM
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I'm sorry it's so hard for you! I agree that it's possible she may just be bad at leaving messages. Or maybe she had an off moment? I hope that you can reach out again. If she's been kind in the past I imagine it is likely she will be kind again.

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Old May 15, 2016, 09:45 PM
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She may only be available at a certain time due to some other obligation so she was just letting you know when that would be, so call her at that time when she will be able to take your call.
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Old May 15, 2016, 09:58 PM
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I think Lola is right.
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Old May 15, 2016, 10:11 PM
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It does seem cold.

It's odd that she told you to go to the ER if you're not suicidal.

I hope you can get some comfort somehow.
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Old May 15, 2016, 10:36 PM
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I am wondering what you expected to happen. It sounds like your therapist cares about you. You called her and she called you back. Rather than play phone tag she told you when she is free. It is important to remember therapists have lots of patients they work with so it is important to have some structure. She suggested the er to cover herself but it is also good advice. I have had times when the er probably was my best option.
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Old May 15, 2016, 11:36 PM
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It does seem cold.

It's odd that she told you to go to the ER if you're not suicidal.

I hope you can get some comfort somehow.
I've been told to go to the ER for a bout of extreme anxiety. It is not ideal and it sounds like it was meant as a Plan B. But it's not limited to suicidal feelings.

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Old May 15, 2016, 11:44 PM
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I feel like I'm trying to be honest with T, like we had talked about during our last session. I've been monitoring what I say because I worry about how she will see me, or if she will be overwhelmed by me. I'm trying.

I'm feeling horrible tonight. Depression has escalated severely. I'm not suicidal but needed to reach out, like she's encouraged me to do in the past.

I left a voicemail for her. She called and left a voicemail for me, basically saying that if I really thought that talking to her would help, to call at a specific time. If I couldn't do that, to go to the ER.

She's never said that to me.

I'm so sad. I could be overreacting, but now, in this moment, I needed her to be kind, even if it was just kindness over the voicemail. I feel like I was slapped in the face. She's my psychiatrist too, so I can't just quit therapy because I know I need my medications.

Sorry to bother you guys.
I think you have to remember to be of help. A T needs to remain steady. It won't make sense now. But if she's a good T you will get what you need, but in a structured way.
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Old May 16, 2016, 12:44 AM
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I listened to the voicemail again, after I calmed down, and she sounded much kinder. I'm glad we're meet on Tuesday, although it will be embarrassing to talk about. I hate freaking out like that.

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Old May 16, 2016, 05:23 AM
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I've been told to go to the ER for a bout of extreme anxiety. It is not ideal and it sounds like it was meant as a Plan B. But it's not limited to suicidal feelings.
My husband works in the er and gets so irritated at that type of situation. I never said it was only for suicide, but op just mentioned depression.

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