Does this poem convey what I want it to?

CassyO. Sorry this was hard for you, it had been a difficult week for me too since writing this, like being on a rollercoaster of thought patterns. Comfort is a big thing, especially if we didn't get it and don't know how to comfort ourselves. I understand what you are saying about other relationships. I don't yearn for lots of close relationships and I think that it because I am scared of them. I don't think it will ever happen so I have closed myself off to the idea. There is only one thing I yearn for and that is as I described, the same as you, comfort, care, nurturing. Just once, from one person, someone who can be a mother figure to me for a limited time. I think I just want to go through that process.

You are not a psychopath, just you, and if you don't yearn then that is fine. But that might change.

I don't think I have helped here at all, my thoughts around it are all over the place again!! At the moment I really don't think my T wants to offer herself to me. It is all theoretical, not real. I need real. I plan on going in to my session on Tuesday and drawing my T a picture. This poem will wait for a while. I need to show her the islands we are on (a long way apart) surrounded by shark infested waters. She has a spear, I do not. My island is black and dark and horrid and hers is golden and sunlit. I can't get to her and she won't come to mine.

Came to me yesterday afternoon as I was curled under my duvet hiding from the world. I hope she can see some sense in it.

I hope also that you can talk with your T about this. Not receiving the comfort you were expecting is amazingly heart breaking. That is how I felt this week when she text me. It is like having your dreams dangled in front of you and then taken away. Sorry you are going through this.

That sounds like a great picture and a perfect way to describe things, Waterbear.

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