The Couch 116: Puns Tsar Terrible...

Apple cider vinegar is supposed to be good for an itchy scalp, too.

Blue plastic grocery bags are much sexier than boring white ones!

You are right SM. The power of words though.....

Coconut oil is amazing for your hair!! I sleep with it in my hair every other night. My hair is very fine (small in texture) and it has helped mine so much! I've not had the scalp issue but coconut oil is amazing for everything!!

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That's not pathetic...I totally get it. Out of curiosity, does it trigger abandonment feelings when he cancels? Like stuff from your past? I've found that happens to some extent with my marriage counselor, especially when he has to cancel two appointments in a row, as happened recently. (My T very rarely cancels, so less of an issue with her.)

Wow, I am so not caught up with the couch! Our wifi at work has been very unreliable this week and I haven't been able to catch up here on my lunch break. So I am here now to send hugs to those who want them and anti-hugs to those who don't.

I am barely keeping my eyes open right now, so I'm not even going to attempt to catch up. Going to bed early tonight. I feel a headache threatening, haven't really had one since I quit drinking soda come to think of it, so hoping some extra sleep tonight will keep it at bay. night couch!

Sleep well ART!

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I'm right there with you. Some medications make it impossible not to gain weight.

Why do dogs never believe there is no more food? Why do they have to inspect both sides of your hand and your pockets and shoes?

They are optimists.

I have never stored food in my shoes, yet thats the second place he looks.

There might be some of that going on.

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They are also strangers to logical thought.

My dogs also check out crotches and very few people keep food in their underwear either.
Pockets make more sense to me because I almost always have dog treats in my pockets.

I'm not sure what that is, I've never heard of it. I've tried tea tree shampoo, African black soap shampoo, various dandruff shampoos, and even scalpicin. I have the weirdest issues!

I'm for bed, got to wake up earlier than usual tomorrow for DD1's T and then my eye appointment. Should be fun going to work with my eyes dilated.

Amazon has some coal tar shampoos
https://www.amazon.com/Coal-Tar-Sham...olytar+shampoo

https://www.amazon.com/MG217-Psorias...HWTGCZT7HDQNKH

That's the fellas.

She lied to me.
Pretty sure my T just lied to me.

Hi, couch. Been a while. School is out now and I am on summer break, though I still have CVS.

Had a so-so day today. Saw pdoc. He pounded his fist on his desk today and said "that's unacceptable" when he found out I am not consistently taking my medication again. Also told me that I will have a rough future if I do not get my psychosis under control (the voices and paranoia are back). He increased my injection dose. He said it was only temporary until I stabilized, but said it would be at least for 3 or 4 months. When I went to make my appointment for 4 weeks, the receptionist tells me he is on vacation that week. I say just make it for the following week then and she tells me we can't without pdoc's approval, since I am a mandatory 4 weeks. She tells me we have to ask him what he wants to do. She does...his response...come in the week before he goes on vacation because I am not stable enough to go over 4 weeks. So, I will be going in in 3 weeks and a day rather than 4 weeks. Oh the joys of feeling that I am being watched by a hawk.

Came out of pdocs office and saw that I had a screw in one of my tires. It was not flat, but I was afraid that it would go flat on me, so I went to Tires Plus too see about getting it removed and fixed. I feared that it was too close to the edge of the tire to be fixed (it was about 1/4 of an inch from the edge), but I did not tell the tire place that. But after they looked at it they told me that it was too close to the sidewall so I needed a new tire...so my fears were right, but I trusted it was true since I thought it was pretty close when I saw it. So, I had to buy a new tire. Then, I was really down...bad pdoc visit, followed by the tire...so I decided to treat myself to an early dinner at Carrabba's (there is one next to CVS) before I had to go into work.

Work went pretty well. No crazy people, except one lady that refused to have me cash her out because I "over-charged" her last time and the refund still had not made it back to her card. Her over-charge was for a prescription that was not run on her insurance and she had to have it rebilled and refunded. We told her (the pharmacist and I) that the refund could take a week to show sometimes, but I guess she was still mad at us. Oh well.

Was supposed to have tomorrow night off, but one of my coworkers has to go to her grandmother's funeral, so I am covering for her. Oh well, extra hours. I'll take them. I am off Friday though. Getting my hair cut Friday...a much needed task. Then to pick up my script for the increased Invega (it had to be ordered by the pharmacy since it was not in stock) so I have it for next appointment. He used a sample he had today for the increase, but sent in a script to the pharmacy for the next few months.

Pdoc was "harsh" with me today. Besides what I mentioned earlier in this post, when it was time for my injection he asked if I was ready. I said not really. His response...oh well it must be given. When it was over, he asked if it hurt. I reply not much. His response to that, well at least you aren't a baby about it. WTF?!? I think he was just POed that I was not taking my medication everyday and let it affect how he dealt with me. I'm not going to stop seeing him for it (and I think he knows that), I'm just a little stunned by it.

EM -I am sorry hear the therapist has lied- I have had them do that from time to time -my approach now is to simply not rely on their veracity in the first place.
Is it over something where it matters? It is not fun to be lied to -but had you relied on the information or position and now are also betrayed?

Squirrel - could you find a different md? That one you have is an asshole.

Squirrel - does he not have any suggestions for how you can solve the medication issue?

The merck manual is free to download from itunes - I don't know how long it will last but if you are an apple user and are interested in the manual - it is free to download right now.

I am hungry (mirabile dictu) and all I have is a packet of oatmeal - but no utensils. It is much too late to go out. Maybe I will sniff at my shoes to see if there are any hidden treats in them!

He just says to take it and cannot understand why I don't. He asks me why, but it's beyond me why...to which he says my explanation is not valid.

SD - There are very few pdocs in my area that accept my insurance and are male (I have a thing against female doctors...I just can't trust them and do not feel comfortable with them). My current pdoc, despite being an A-hole, I do trust, so there is that.

Well it's 1:30am, so off to bed I go. Night couch.

Ellahmae, what happened?

Squirrel, good to see you again.

Yeah, I can sort of understand that, but this person is unique in my experience. It was he who wrote a letter to my pdoc four years ago asking him to take me on as a therapy client, since he (friend) knew that I would not be able to ask for myself. (That is, he asked me if I would like him to do that - he didn't try to take over my right to decide what I wanted) And he has been incredibly supportive almost the entire time I've been in therapy, so maybe I shouldn't be so surprised. But I am. Also touched. (That is a James Bond joke in Swedish, but it doesn't translate.)

But, you know, if I were to tell my H about my plans to lose some weight (which I won't) I would not get that kind of reaction at all. And I have been told that one ought to look to one's spouse for support so maybe I've got this all wrong.