Discharge tuesday... Scared?

I think my arm is infected. It hurts so badly I can barely touch it. I'm supposed to have the stitches and staples removed by plastics (they do this sometimes for sone reason) at the end of 2 weeks but I'm wondering if I need to go to a clinic or just slather on some Polysporin. Does it really matter? Suicidal and discharged, even though I was there on an involuntary hold. Does an infection matter? My life clearly does not.

The hospital is always obviously the end of the line and I'm too sick for them/not getting better/not worth keeping my life safe until I'm less at risk? Am I that worthless? Do I sit around waiting until I have the guts to try again? Because DBT is not a miracle, and even if it were, I can't wait that long to get stable and safe. I have done the full DBT course before and still sit broken, shredded to bits, 10 yrs later.

Physical pain and my second sublingual Ativan dulling the fear for now. Apparently it's Friday night.

God my arm hurts so bad and it's been a week. This isn't normal.

Go see a doctor about your arm ASAP

I agree--please get it checked out. If it's that bad, then you would probably need oral antibiotics, not just topical ones. Is it warm to the touch? I think that's another sign of infection. And I think the reason they have plastics take out stitches it to minimize scarring (this is based on watching medical shows, so there could be some other reason). But please get it checked out soon.

agreed. i know you don't care about your life right now, but you don't need to add in that kind of physical pain as well, right? Things can go very bad very quickly, and very painfully

I'm at the clinic. The nurse put me right away in the suture room and said it needs orAl antibiotics and maybe draining.

Waiting for doctor. It hurts and I don't want anyone touching it. It's hard under the stitches.

yep, definitely an infection good job going to the clinic!

Good job

Agreed that you did a good thing by going to the clinic. Hope they can make it feel better soon!

Just finally left the clinic, got sent to back to ER at the hospital I just discharged from for IV antibiotics. Waiting on culture and ultrasound.

This was going to happen eventually anyway.i've been lucky,

Will be in the hospital a few days. IV antibiotics. I shouldn't even be released from psych yet but here I am already back in a different dept. pExhausted. Wondering if I will be allowed to leave here to go to my therapy group at 1. That and individual therapy are all my support.

Someome just tried to put an iv in my foot because my arms are so messed up and this one isn't working so well. I legit screamed. It hurt so ****ing bad

I cried all night because I'm not doing well with this early discharge from psych. The nurse noticed whennshe came to put the IV last night and is getting the afternoon pdoc over here later. I miss the support from the nurses on the unit so badly and I'm scared. I don't feel safe or strong. I did this to myself. I miss ppl to talk to about how desperate I feel. I'm not ok at all and I don't even care about this infection. I want to rip out the tube and go home. Struggling bad.

Last night my (general medicine) nurse asked if I was safe to go alone to my apt today and i said I was released Wednesday from psych so it doesnt really matter. They decided it was sink or swim already. I think I am sinking.

is gone I guess.

A. Apparently my nurse and doctor think I need to be in psych
B. They just called this MRSA

MRSA is bad--so glad you got medical help for it. Would you just get put back in the same psych place where you were? Because that didn't seem to be helping you...Are there any other options, like inpatient where you'd get actual therapy and support?

Please stay there until the antibiotics can take effect. When do you see your regular T again? Please be honest with her about how desperate you're feeling right now.

Please stay with us pink. The community here needs you too. If there is anything we can do or if you need to talk come here before doing anything drastic. I know it hurts and it's like asking a person on fire not to scream. Talk it out here first ok?

MRSA is pretty bad (but treatable) and I could not get rid of it for years. When you heal asked them to check if you are a career so they can beat it otherwise it will keep coming back. Please insist they keep you there

I agree with all of this--well said.

How are you doing today?

is the infection healing?

Update? Good and bad? Let us know when you are up for it

I'm out. I'm on oral antibiotics for 2 weeks and appts to get it checked and bandages changed. They mainly wanted to put me back in psych during the IV antibiotic treatment (same major hospital) because the short term stay unit had no beds. Also, my emergency medicine doctor didn't think I should have been discharged in the first placce. He went down the hall with the team into anothe little room to say tha to thevteam, but thought I seemed really unstable to the point where he didn't want to discharge me for psychiatric reasons because he said psych was "negligent" in letting me go home while I was clearly not okay (I know a lot of the nurses and I was telling them how scared I am by my self-harming thoughts) plus I did this just days before discharge. I told them there was absolutely no point in being reassessed by psych. The doctor seemed to think it would be different "now that I have caused myself a serious infection,"' but of course itvwouldn't/won't be.

It was really hard being back there after everything. I'm strugglingas it is.

As part of my mandated therapy, I'm doing a "skills" group once a week that's based in a large part on DBT. I've done a proper DBT group once for about 10 months as well as a 3 month "skills" group ages ago. None of that stuff helped me much. I can use it a bit to help with self-destructive behaviours but I feel like what I'm desperate for is to lessen this incredible pain inside of me. I don't know if it's even possible to do it. Is it by feeling it instead of cutting it away when it gets to be too much?

Hi Pink, just wanted to check in and see how you're doing.