[OliverB]

I was supposed to go to a day hospital everyday for activities and once a week with therapy with both a psychology and psychiatrist. I ended up messing everything up because entities didn't like it so I stopped seeing the psychologis after 2-3 times, never went to the activities more than once and saw my psychiatris once each 20 day. Three months ago I left and haven't seen anyone in these three months.

So this Tuesday 6th I gave a 5 pages long letter to my psychiatrist trying to explain him what it's happening.

On Friday 9th I called him asking for some clonazepam and he gave an appointment for nex Friday 16th. He said he read the letter and offered me the appointment even if I didn't ask for it.

I was thinking on leaving another letter, this one, on Tuesday 13th.

''On friday appointment I would like to talk about...
1. What to do with the day hospital.
2. What to do with therapy and my mind.

+More time I am far from the day hospital more easier it's for entities to convince me I have to leave. So I was thinking on giving this to the nurse on 13 Tuesday so i stay in touch and entities don't gain that much power.

+I have things I want to talk about, so I was thinking of writing them down and give it to you on friday appointment so we can talk about them on next appointments. I cant talk about them by my own if there is not a basis.
I am sorry if I am being over demanding, I am just trying to find a way to communicate without ,leaving or wasting time in sessions.'

The letter I want to give him on Friday 16th has 2 and 1/3 pages, but I don't have any other way to explain myself.

Is it too much?
am I misbehaving?

No, you're not. You're communicating your needs in a way which suits you, creatively circumventing difficulties.

[Argonautomobile]

Originally Posted by QuietMind

No, you're not. You're communicating your needs in a way which suits you, creatively circumventing difficulties.

I Agree.

[ruh roh]

I agree with quietmind. Your pdoc already read the 5 page letter, so it doesn't seem to be an issue and is probably even appreciated. I have sent tons of pages to my therapist and she has never said I was being demanding. She says they help her understand what's going on, and on my end, it helps to get things across in that way.

This does not look anything like misbehaving (I don't actually think that concept even fits when someone is trying to get help). You are, like quiet mind said, finding a creative way to get around internal barriers.

[AllHeart]

Originally Posted by Nocter

I was supposed to go to a day hospital everyday for activities and once a week with therapy with both a psychology and psychiatrist. I ended up messing everything up because entities didn't like it so I stopped seeing the psychologis after 2-3 times, never went to the activities more than once and saw my psychiatris once each 20 day. Three months ago I left and haven't seen anyone in these three months.

So this Tuesday 6th I gave a 5 pages long letter to my psychiatrist trying to explain him what it's happening.

On Friday 9th I called him asking for some clonazepam and he gave an appointment for nex Friday 16th. He said he read the letter and offered me the appointment even if I didn't ask for it.

I was thinking on leaving another letter, this one, on Tuesday 13th.

''On friday appointment I would like to talk about...
1. What to do with the day hospital.
2. What to do with therapy and my mind.

+More time I am far from the day hospital more easier it's for entities to convince me I have to leave. So I was thinking on giving this to the nurse on 13 Tuesday so i stay in touch and entities don't gain that much power.

+I have things I want to talk about, so I was thinking of writing them down and give it to you on friday appointment so we can talk about them on next appointments. I cant talk about them by my own if there is not a basis.
I am sorry if I am being over demanding, I am just trying to find a way to communicate without ,leaving or wasting time in sessions.'

The letter I want to give him on Friday 16th has 2 and 1/3 pages, but I don't have any other way to explain myself.

Is it too much?
am I misbehaving?

You are certainly not misbehaving. Writing is a great tool for getting this stuff out and letting yourself be heard. So, good for you for writing the 5 page letter. As for the follow-up 2-1/3 page letter, if the entities are going to undermine your power and cause a negative effect for you and how this meeting will go on the 16th, you should give the letter to the nurse on the 13th. I think you should do what is best for you at this point and not worry about it being too much. I don't think it's too much. If your psychiatrist does then he can tell you as such but I wouldn't worry about it.

[OliverB]

Thank you really much.

I am worried I was writing too much since I am not a 'good patient' because I leave, I don't take meds, I don't like what they tell me -or entities don't like it-, I avoid activities...

I just write stuff, It's my only way to communicate what's happening to fix it, I really would like to talk freely with my therapist and do some activities.

[AllHeart]

Originally Posted by Nocter

Thank you really much.

I am worried I was writing too much since I am not a 'good patient' because I leave, I don't take meds, I don't like what they tell me -or entities don't like it-, I avoid activities...

I just write stuff, It's my only way to communicate what's happening to fix it, I really would like to talk freely with my therapist and do some activities.

I totally get it. And I think writing is very healing. I hope all goes well for you!

[ruh roh]

Originally Posted by Nocter

I just write stuff, It's my only way to communicate what's happening to fix it, I really would like to talk freely with my therapist and do some activities.

Can you do art with her? Either while you're there or bring it in and discuss? I do that with two different kinds of art--one is just pure getting things on paper in any kind of way and the other is a more structured art form that I'm learning outside of therapy but using it for therapy reasons. It's been a good way to open up communication.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by ruh roh

Can you do art with her? Either while you're there or bring it in and discuss? I do that with two different kinds of art--one is just pure getting things on paper in any kind of way and the other is a more structured art form that I'm learning outside of therapy but using it for therapy reasons. It's been a good way to open up communication.

No, I can't, he does talk therapy. He is a really serious 60 years old man -I find this a bit annoying, the serious thing-