[sidony]

So I left T a message Friday evening that I was upset. I said that if he was still in (can't tell since he can't answer his phone if he's with a client) to call me back. Otherwise maybe to call me on Monday. He actually called me on Saturday. I was so amazed at that. I talked to him on the phone for around 20 minutes. I've never done that before. Usually if he calls I talk for a few seconds and then tell him I don't want to keep him. This time when I tried to pull away he told me to stop worrying about what he needs, that he had called me back because he wanted to. So I kept talking to him, and the conversation eventually ended naturally. I'm so glad he was there. I wished later that it could have been today instead of yesterday because yesterday evening was so painful. I'm having a terrible time and feel like I'm dying inside. I'm so glad T was there. I'm really dependent on him right now, and he wants me to be. So it's good. I wish I could see him twice a week right now though that'd be hard while I'm unemployed. I might try it anyway though.

Sidony

[lauren_helene]

Hey Sid, I'm glad he called you back! It's the little things that T's do that mean so much

Now you are exactly where i would like to be relationship-wise... but sadly we already are in the same boat employment-wise.

i am sorry you're having a hard time... i don't know what is happening but i honestly send good thoughts your way.

it is a wonderful and touching thing that he cares that much and he is giving the help you need on your need level. i am trying so hard with my T... i hope we can get to where you are.

[bipolar_bear]

It sounds like your T is a very caring supportive person. I am glad you have found him. Take care.

BB

[sidony]

Thanks all.

Gerber, I'm sorry about your unemployment too. It sure is hard. As to what else is going on with me, it's dealing with seeing my ex-love with someone new. So heartbreaking and so hard to deal with on top of everything else. And naturally it's a relationship that I screwed up for all the reasons I'm in therapy now....



Sidony

hey, remember, it takes two right? It can't succeed or fail due to just one person... period. i don't know what your roles were, but he can't have been perfect. It's his loss IMO.

Sid, first of all, I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad. I remember you telling me that you normally aren't prone to depression, so this must suck so, so much for you.

That's great that he called you on a Saturday. A 20-minute conversation! He's welcoming your dependence on him, and he should be--- because you are using your relationship with him as a healthy way to cope. It know that it feels horrible to need so badly... but sometimes you just have to let yourself accept that it's okay to need.

I hope you are doing ok today.

[gostryter]

awe - sidony!! i'm so glad you had such a comforting experience with your T!!

OK - so what's with all of us being unemployed!!!

we may have to start a "Yikes, I'm unemployed" forum if we all keep this up!!!!!!!