Saturday

On saturday was three of my friends birthday so we had a phat party my friend and myself had a gram of coke and in once that was finished I finshed about two bottles whiskey and had a couple glasses of vodka and oranje juice and on Sunday I felt like %#@&#! I couldnt even move my body hurt and still does I ran into a door and buggered up my knee and well its all really a blank, so what does that make me if thats what I do?

someone who wants to blank out pain? we're all here to help

sending you a hug, love jinny xoxoxoxo

Sounds very scary Psyclox. I have to share something here. I had a friend die from the combo of cocaine and alcohol. He drank the night before so he was hungover. He had a job interview so he needed some pep. He did a line of coke. About 30 minutes later, he was being rushed to the hospital where he died. Just the amount of alcohol from the night before mixed with one line of coke stopped his heart. The doctors said if he had done it in the ER that they wouldn't have been able to save him. Its impossible to predict when that will happen, when the lethal dose of coke and alcohol will hit. He didn't even do that much. Please please be careful. The same goes with the energy drinks and alcohol, like red bull and vodka. Same chemical composition. Just be careful.

If you're questioning what that makes you because of what you do, then that is something to look at. What do you think it makes you?

Sum1 with alot of problems to drown out.

psyclox we are here for support. please dont damage yourself. pm me anytime, i can listen

jinny xoxoxox

Hello Psyclox.
I am very sorry you are going through all of this that youare going through at this time. You asked the question of What does this make me? I would sincerely feel that if you feel the need to drink and do cocaine to have fun it makes you someone in need of professional help to help you learn to deal with issues without the drinking and the drugs. It sounds like you need a very good professional support team to help you stay clean and sober. I hope you think about getting hte help you need and deserve since things are getting this bad for youto handle alone. Take care Psyclox. I hope the best for you. Soidhonia

I agree. I drowned out all my problems too with alcohol until I got sober and learned tools to deal with life without alcohol.

Someone not likely to do that again for awhile?

I try to use my missteps and remember their unpleasant consequences, figure out whatever it was that I was running from at the time and an idea or two on how to fix that.

Hope you're feeling better by now Psyclox.