What do you do if your trust issues hinder finding a t?

I've gone to many one time, first meeting session just to never return. I end up extremely paranoid after each session and can't go back. There's two things I'm scared of. A t trapping me into the hospital or I'll end up attached to a t that just leaves and quits like my doctor did. She kinda was my t. We would have hour long sessions and we'd just talk and then she would give me my refill prescription if needed. I thought I would be okay alone. But I'm far from okay. But I can't do anything. I'm stuck screaming for help but can't do so myself.

a T cant trap you into a hospital without a lot of jumping thru legal hoops. if you are paranoid about that, then maybe initially dont talk about the things you're afraid will trigger a T into thinking you need to be hospitalized. also it might be good just to say all of this up front to a potential T. ask questions about their involuntary hospitalization procedures... as far as getting attached it might happen and it might not. therapy isnt for everyone... so maybe finding other alternatives could help. one doesnt have to see a therapist to recover, kinda like an alcoholic doesnt have to be in AA in order to get sober. there are many, many ways and avenues you could take.

I have found that telling new t your fears right up front helps them understand how to treat you better. My new t found out in a heartbeat what triggers me (being forgotten).

It is a bad spot to be in. I can relate to asking for help, but being afraid to tell the whole truth.

I found that it's not something I could force. I missed a chance with one that might have been a good therapist a long time ago because I couldn't talk or trust enough to even say why I was there.

Can you give yourself a break before trying again?

We all struggle with trust, especially in the beginning. I don't say that to minimize your feelings but so you know it's not uncommon. It's hard. Especially after losing a T or someone who was like a T to you. I had a similar experience.

Two things I would suggest are 1) print your wonderful post and take it with you when you decide to try again to find a T. It's really a great place to start, because it's where you are'. And 2) when my T asked if I could 'trust the process' vs trying to trust her, that was really helpful. I could do that. I could think about that between sessions and not panic, because it wasn't about her.

This last time, 10 hears ago, I committed to myself. I was going to keep going even if I didn't feel like it, even if I felt like quitting. It's been so worth it!

Good luck to you!

I think being aware of your fears, but doing it anyway.

Yes. It's like at some point you have to jump in the pool without water wings to see if you really can swim.

It's hard, but it's a major step towards taking control of your life.

I'm going to say go back to your (present) family doctor. Ask them to make a referral. Your GP will have a pretty good idea the qualities you need in a therapist.