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Can't open on my stupid phone, but looking forward to reading when i get home!

So t read the active imagination i sent her last night, her response was that it is "big stuff". Indeed, t. And i have only 30 minutes scheduled for Wednesday. It wants more than that.... I'm gonna want more than that... I am needy and greedy. Bah on me. Sigh. But oh well. At least she's read it.

I have a bucket of candy and no trick or treaters!!!

I apologise for earlier posts. I am in a lot of pain right now but that does not give me the right to act out.

I'm going away tomorrow, for a holiday in southern Europe. My hotel has wifi but I have no idea whether I will be online much or at all. Right now I don't want to go, but I'm sure that will change once I'm on my way. At least it will be a little lighter, and also warmer!

Crocus I hope you enjoy your holiday. I can't speak for everyone, but I really enjoy you, and will miss your posts while you're away.

Yes crocus you will be missed here but hoping you can have some fun on vacation!

I hope you have a wonderful trip and you feel better!!

Yes it is absolutely ok and not at all uncommon to wish for numbness when you have had such a loss. Grief is awful.

I've got no trick or treaters either. Live on a main road so no one really comes here. Didn't even bother buying candy this year, have quarters by the door in case we get a few people.

Noooooo! I'm your understudy in the sand dance and it's no fun dancing behind unaluna when she's on a high-protein diet.

Who's pulling whose leg? In the sand dance, i mean.

I finally backed my car down the driveway and opened the back, sat in the back with my candy and passed it out!

Maybe there were other posts, but I most certainly do not see this as acting out. I see it as a person in pain looking for connection, because suffering in pain alone sucks big time. I hope you enjoy your holiday and you return

On the dream front: 99% of the dreams I remember are all nightmares. THey are usually me in some form trying to not get killed in various ways, and usually pretty violent. My T likes to tell me that some part of me (she says my 'shadow') is super pissed and wants to be expressed. I was like "Well T, I have enough conscious rage, I don't need to add onto it, thanks."

I actually just bought a journal to try (again) to record my dreams if I can do it. Most of the time I wake up, but come out of such a deep sleep that I can only manage staying awake for a few seconds before I am back in it. Writing down the dreams may also help me stay awake long enough to not go back to the nightmare.

I've been writing down my dreams for so long now that pretty regularly I wake up the next morning and look at my dream journal and read a dream that I have no recollection of writing down. It's become so automatic, that I don't even always wake up all the way anymore. Those are the fun ones to try to decipher, cuz often I'll write two lines one on top of the other!

So does anybody else do Jungian Active Imaginations as part of therapy? I can't remember but I think somebody else does or has in the past. (This ol' memory ain't what it used to be.) I ask cuz I'm just curious about other people's experiences with them. I've done a lot of them over the years, but I don't think any of them have been as emotionally draining as the one I did yesterday. And I was thinking about why. I guess it's because it's not like, intellectual writing. The only "thinking" part (for me, anyway) is the very beginning setting it up... consciously putting myself back in the dream I want to dialog with.... mentally picturing the dream... finding who I want to dialog with... and starting the conversation. After that, there's no thinking or planning or whatever. It's like, I fall into this conversation with some deep, truest part of myself, or something. This is one thing I'm not going to ever quit doing even if I do someday leave therapy! Sorry to ramble. I get enthused and want to share and my h and son really aren't interested....

Have had 15 trick or treaters so far, it's only 6:30 so I imagine I'll see quite a few more! The cats were all happy (at first) sitting at the screen door smelling the night air, til the first batch of kiddos came up the sidewalk, then all 3 of them high-tailed it into my bedroom! they are so funny.

I'm an apartment dweller so no trick or treaters for me. It's strange I thought an apt complex would be easy pickings

No trick-or-treators tonight. Not all that surprising since most of the kids on our block are teenagers now. Heck, my youngest son went to study at the library tonight. Darn, I'll have to eat that chocolate myself I guess.

I've already had a handful of teenagers tonight, collecting candy in their backpacks! My son will be sad to hear he missed the two teenage girls who were here about 15 minutes ago lol.

I'm trying to keep my hands out of the candy bowl, so far so good, keeping myself busy here on the couch in between groups of kids. I live in a great neighborhood with lots of kids so I imagine there will be a lot more! I'm already over 30 (yes I keep track lol)

Today was costume day at school. Best costume I saw today was one of my students who walked in wearing a T-Rex costume. It was probably 7 feet tall, and had a air motor in it that inflated it around him. It was hilarious.

That's awesome lolagrace! Two of my friends at work, one of whom is in a wheelchair, came to work as Forrest Gump and Capn Dan. They are the coolest chicks evah!!

I just accidentally scared a little girl lol - she called out "anybody home?" just as I was coming around the corner to the door, I said "oops, sorry, I gotta sit away from the candy so I don't eat it" and her mom laughed.

I only had two. I wasn't necessarily trying to keep track, but you know?

I suppose I should stop with the play-by-play. I'm just entertaining myself so I don't eat half of the chocolate!!