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I'm sorry you haven't heard back from them. I don't understand why the ultimatum from the pdoc. That's just ignorant in my book!!! It makes no sense. I have taken breaks from therapy too, always telling t before I do, and it's never been an issue. I hope you are able to get some good sleep. And glad you have the Haagen-Dazs as a backup.

That Columbo, eh. Sometimes I suspect my T has taken lessons from him.

Feeling better this morning. Just scared last night.

MP - I'm glad you are feeling better today!

ATAT - Thinking of you and hoping today is a better day for you.

Happy Friday!!

i hate insurance company's

i also hate dr office secretaries that think they know what they are doing and refuse to fix a problem that will stop me from getting all these bills . i have told her what the insurance company has told they need but she argues with me

I'm sorry granite, jeez that's the last thing you need right now. I hope the insurance stuff gets straightened out quickly.

lol at this point im like a pit bull lol my anxiety is so high im not taking any crap from these people .this person is horrible to deal with . next i go to her boss

I have a crying hangover from last night. And this is why I try my hardest not to cry.

I hate crying hangovers!

Random thought. I have been noticing in the mirror lately that my 'lazy eye' as they call it has been getting lazier and i look kinda freakish because of it. I wonder if i start wearing a patch over my good eye for a time every day the weak one will get stronger. I had surgery on bad eye as a baby and wore a patch when i was little. I don't even see an opthomologist anymore haven't in forever. Maybe i should again. I hate how this eye wanders and makes me look weird.

Holy moly! The crap is gonna fly! Good ol' family drama. This could get really ugly. Sad! Really sad! Probably gonna end up in court.

Yes, it would, that's how the army fixed my grandfather's lazy eye in WWII.

Want a psychiatrist to practice being a pit bull on? I know just the one!

I'm in the same position as last night - alternating tears and numbness, unable to get myself to go home - except at least I'm in my office this time.

So, I would like to present the following excerpt from a recent e-mail from my marriage counselor to show why, at times, he can be a bit...infuriating. Because...what?!? (This part was in response to my saying that I thought punching a wall was actually kind of pathological, in response to his saying he was trying to de-pathologize it to my husband):
"I do think that we look at getting angry and punching a wall differently. I do not think that it is good to punch a wall. It is not helpful or adaptive. It is a mistake. But I also see it as a mistake that is relatively common. That does not make it ok, but I do see it in the realm of typical. Again, that does not make it alright." (He did say more than this, and is back on my good side, but this part just jumped out at me.)

Also, probably because I have a 5-year-old, the one part made me think of a Dr. Seuss book. Like:
It is not good to punch a wall
It is not a good thing at all!
(Perhaps someone else can come up with the next line?)

I bet only you notice it Art!! I've never noticed it in the pics you have posted. Not even a little.

Would you do it to a box?
Would you do it to a fox?

Keep in mind it has to be in proper anapestic tetrameters, with (usually) an anapestic tetrameter catalectic every fourth line.

Or, just have at it.

I have the same issue, Art. I had surgery on both eyes when I was two and another surgery on one eye when I was ten.

I have told T I have this problem because it might make her feel I'm not making eye contact. T says she hasn't noticed it at all. I am pretty sure I can see it in my mirror reflection (if I am tired or very upset.). Now I wonder if I'm seeing the issue at all.

I didn't have to wear a patch. They tried to get me to do eye exercises when I was little. Nah.

You won't see an ophthalmologist, Art?

One pint of Haagen-Dazs chocolate peanut butter ice cream, down the hatch.

It's not that I won't, I just haven't in ages and ages, and just seems like a pain in the wazoo when they probably can't do anything to fix it anyway. Maybe I will look into it though just to find out. My t has noticed it, she didn't bring it up but acknowledged that she's noticed it when I said something about it one time. And we discovered that if she sits across from me but to my right, it's not as noticeable. Then shortly thereafter she started sitting over there all the time. Which made me even more self conscious but I never said anything about it. It's on my mind today because I looked at myself in the mirror as I came out of the bathroom stall at work today, and that eye was all wonky. Maybe I'm just tired-er than usual today like you said, it's worse when I'm tired. The stupid thing is I was born with it crossed in, but it wanders the complete opposite direction like they over-corrected it or something. I dunno. Anyway it makes it hard for me to make eye contact with people, because my eyes don't work together, when I make eye contact I have to consciously look out that eye instead of the other one - if I switch back and forth like I usually do just doing whatever, it could go off on it's own. I am babbling here. Shut up now, Art. Enough.

You know session was a ***** when your T found you in the bathroom repeatedly scrubbing your hands and crying and scrubbing and drying and scrubbing and drying and scrubbing, and she has to turn the water off and help you walk to her office.

See, I have an English degree, so I was being too picky with myself for meter in the next two lines!

Would you do it on the rocks?
Would you do it with some lox?

Would you punch holes here and there?
Would you punch them anywhere?