Pdoc and I don't get along....

Well I hope this is the right place for this. I've been seeing my pdoc for little over a year, and bluntly we don't get along. I've found reasoning behind it. She as all pdocs know all about medicines and how they work with the mentally ill, but what I don't think pdocs know is the person. My Therapist and I both agree my condition is anti-medicine...basicly meds dont help it,...i've been taking anywhere from anxiety meds to anti-depressents, to OCD style meds,.etc since I was 12...NOTHING HAS WORKED.

The last visit with my pdoc was astoundingly awful, I told her how I had felt,...and this was about 2 months ago she seemed to say no you dont feel that way you feel like this....I was like no...she said/says I have OCD problems...I will agree I have obsessive thoughts,...but she leaves out the things that are also important like my social problems, my depression which is what I believe leads to the obsessive thoughts, and a few other things....

I'm not saying she is totally wrong,...else I wouldnt keep going...all i know is my laast visit I ripped up the prescription after I got out...I cried...so so bad...and my mom and dad where shocked...they rushed back got a new prescription and told my pdoc...i'm not sure what she said....so now for 2 months i've taken these meds...actually 3 months I think...no luck...i want them to help more then an astranaut wnats to go to the moon....but they're not helping....

thanks for listening

maybe u should try a new pdoc?

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skittles said:
maybe u should try a new pdoc?

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I really really do want to. But my area UNFORTUNATLY is small,...so its be a long drive to see another,.....once I am an adult I am changing right now my parents won't allow it.....=(

that sucks... maybe u could sit them down and try telling them that u dont feel that this is the right doc for u..?

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skittles said:
that sucks... maybe u could sit them down and try telling them that u dont feel that this is the right doc for u..?

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Unfortunatly I have, and my last visit showed that,...I dont hate anyone...but this pdoc just doesn't work for me,..i need someone I trust....ya know? I can't wait to be on my own,....and to find my own path...even with a pdoc.

(((Moonkin)))

I also vote for a new pdoc. Tell parents you insist on trying out someone else.

(Tell your Dad you want someone to talk to man-to-man, that will work!)

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Moonkin said:
My Therapist and I both agree my condition is anti-medicine...basicly meds dont help it,...i've been taking anywhere from anxiety meds to anti-depressents, to OCD style meds,.etc since I was 12...NOTHING HAS WORKED.

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(((Moonkin))) Sounds really hard to deal with both this pdoc and that meds have not worked for you for years, despite trying them since age 12. Since both you and your T seem agreed that meds will not help you, why do you keep going to a pdoc? It sounds like you're beating a dead horse. If meds won't help, maybe just stick with therapy and stop seeing the pdoc. Is that possible? Or do your parents insist you be on meds? Maybe your T could talk to them and explain that a non-drug approach is more likely to help you. Good luck and take care.