[retro_chic]

So there are now only two more sleeps until I see T again but I'm so nervous about it. What if we've lost the connection we had before? Throughout this entire break I've been desperate to see T and be comforted by her I'm worried that I've built it up so much that I will be disappointed. I also have some anger built up over the fact that I felt abandoned and like T didn't prepare me enough for the break or care about me. I know those thoughts/feelings aren't logical but they're there. I really hate feeling angry at T because then it's like my only source of comfort is ruined. I'm so tired but my brain won't let me sleep because I keep obsessing over this.

[Argonautomobile]

Hi Retro_Chic. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. How long has it been since you've seen your T?

I understand your fears. I've had them, too--but if it reassures you any, I've personally found it very easy to reconnect with my T after a break. I never imagined I could go in after a month or two months and still feel connected to my T, but it worked out fine. I think you'll find that things are different once you're back in the familiar room, seeing T face-to-face.

I wish you the best of luck.

[ScarletPimpernel]

What's the longest you've been away from current T? Assuming this isn't the first vacation, how did you fair after the other breaks?

Has there been any other situations you've experienced where you've lost connection with a person after a period of time?

I'm afraid when my T and I terminate long-term therapy and I only get to see her every 2 months, that I will lose my connection. And I have lost connections before too. My T helped me realize that each situation has been different. One was with an ex-T who I terminated therapy with, but started again because I found out she was leaving. My T pointed out that I knew ex-T was leaving, but she wasn't leaving me. Two different situations. Another, I hadn't seen my counselor in 10 years when we ran into each other at a lab. We had coffee together and it was hard to get back into things. But again 2 different situations: one is 2 months the other is 10 years. And last example is of a church mentor who abandoned me. We reconnected about 5 years later. It was awkward. (She wound up abandoning me again!) But it's different from T because she hasn't abandoned me.

[Out There]

I felt like this after a three week break with both my T's over the holidays. But it was all OK and felt like it never was a break. But it was an unpleasant feeling. I'm sure everything will be fine when you see your T again , I felt a bit abandoned and unsupported. Hugs Retro.

[Sarmas]

Originally Posted by retro_chic

So there are now only two more sleeps until I see T again but I'm so nervous about it. What if we've lost the connection we had before? Throughout this entire break I've been desperate to see T and be comforted by her I'm worried that I've built it up so much that I will be disappointed. I also have some anger built up over the fact that I felt abandoned and like T didn't prepare me enough for the break or care about me. I know those thoughts/feelings aren't logical but they're there. I really hate feeling angry at T because then it's like my only source of comfort is ruined. I'm so tired but my brain won't let me sleep because I keep obsessing over this.

I get how your feeling. I was anxious after my long break. I haven't seen my T since July. I saw her today for the first time and it wa abetted than when we lay left off. There was no lost connection at all and the vibes were all good.

I'm sorry that you felt abandoned. Perhaps that's something that you can discuss with her in session. I thought the long break would also cause a disconnect but I was wrong. It might turn out to be a positive experience. Good luck!

[retro_chic]

Thank you for all the replies!
I'm sure everything will go well with T tomorrow, I was just getting all worked up over it last night and needed to vent. This is the longest break I've had from T (4 weeks) before this we had only had a two week break here and there. It felt like much longer than four weeks so even though I'm nervous for tomorrow I'm also excited

[retro_chic]

Half an hour until T and I feel anxious. The sweaty palms / sick in the stomach kind of anxious

How did your session go, Retro_chic?

[retro_chic]

Originally Posted by QuietMind

How did your session go, Retro_chic?

It went well actually . I had plenty to talk about and I still felt the same connection with T that I had before the break. I realised after my session that T now has another client after me and I saw her as I was leaving and felt very jealous. I've brought up this issue with T before but obviously it is still an issue for me. Another thing to add to my list of topics I guess! Despite that I still feel much more "together" now that I have seen T again.

[ruh roh]

I'm glad it went well. :-)

[skeksi]

I'm glad it was okay!