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On saturday I felt so bad about myself, that I had to come home and start journaling. The strange thing was, that I didn't journal positive self affirming things, I started really cussing myself out, but whilst that was going on, there was this inner calm inside of me and this feeling of "oh well, there you go" and nothing this inner critic could say was really bothering me.
Since then, I've journaled again and the same kind of stuff has come out but its really a nice feeling. A feeling of, well if this stuff doesn't hurt me, then there is no way that anyone outside of myself can hurt me now. It felt like this internalised critical remarks we something that I've been afraid to just sit and finally listen to with out trying to change them. It really did feel healing.
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That sounds like a great things to learn, that the negative comments of the inner critic don't really bother/affect one so negative comments in the outer world shouldn't either.
I've never "liked" what my inner critic says and am argumentative in real life so I easily argue with the inner critic :-) If I say something negative about myself out loud, one will hear me instantly refute it also; I sound like a crazy woman :-) Once at work I had an argument going like that out loud and a "third" person entered in (a resonable sort trying to break up the argument that wasn't getting anywhere :-) and my coworker nearly fell on the floor laughing. She said it was bad enough listening to two of "them" but when the third one entered. . . My favorite though is when my head and hands got into an argument about which had caused a typo. . . LOL!
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Hello Mouse. Good for you for your realization that you have a say in how your recovery should happen and progress. Take care Mouse. Soidhonia
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Mouse_ said: It felt like this internalised critical remarks we something that I've been afraid to just sit and finally listen to with out trying to change them. It really did feel healing. </div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Mouse, that sounds so profound. And so healing. That is quite an amazing experience. </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font> The strange thing was, that I didn't journal positive self affirming things, I started really cussing myself out </div></font></blockquote><font class="post">That is really interesting to me to hear what other people write in their journals and how they use it. I keep a rather extensive journal and I hve never written positive, self-affirming things in it. I don't think I have cussed myself out in it either. Just not the sort of thing I write about. That is so interesting to use your journal in this way. Maybe I should try that....
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Sunrise, How I use my journal is never planned. I use it in desperation most times to empty the pain and confusion in my head.
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Hmmm... I have never written a positive self-affirming thing in my journal. But I don't know that I've ever gone out of my way to be critical either. Mouse, I think that's a great experience-- listening to your own critic, just having to sit and listen because it's you.
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Perna, I understand that feeling quite well - i often have arguments with myself with 2 or 3 parties. Kiya
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Mouse, when I journal it is the same way. I'm not a regular at it. Instead, there are times I know the only way I can get to what's inside is to pick up the pen and let it flow in writing. It's a curious thing, isn't it.
I think what you described is so interesting.. what came out.. how you felt okay about about it. Seems like a self-therapy session with the good kind of surprising reaction from it. |
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Mouse,
I really get this. The other day I wrote pages and pages, sort of a vomit of feelings, if you will. I was feeling so confused that I was trying to purge, and therefore gain clarity. I began to realize that the negative thoughts that were in my head were okay to have. I wasn't acting on them, but there were reflecting my state at the moment. I've used my journal in all sorts of ways. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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