my own worst critic

I can't seem to do anything right according to myself. I don't eat right, sleep right, talk, walk, smile or laugh right.
I am so tired of doing everything wrong and I'm really annoyed with myself for being so critical and judgemental of myself.
I'm not even this mean to people whom I don't like so why do I insist on being so hard on myself?
I go to the store and have a conversation with the cashier about quitting smoking. (She had quit about 6 months ago and I'm trying to quit now.) When I left the store all I did was find fault in every little thing I did and said. I talked too much, I talk too fast, I look really stupid, she thinks I'm a pig because of all of the food I got, ect...
I just go on and on about it and I'm REALLY getting on my nerves. I can't even complain about my complaining without complaining about it!
God I really get on my own nerves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, I'd like a vacation from myself. Do you enjoy listening to other people talk, like the cashier? Did you think she was talking too fast or too much? If not, I would wager she wasn't thinking that about you. So, tell yourself to stop it!!

(((((HUGS)))))

To me:"Stop it!!!"
((((((Frozen Heart)))))) Thank you.

LOLOL

I know exactly what you mean though, I do try to stop myself and think 'what if they are thinking the same thing about themselves' (Is that proper grammer?)

(I think the english teacher is on vacation.)

You bring up a good point. What if they are thinking the same things about themselves and my insecurity is only feeding their insecurity? To think this way of myself, to myself is kind of selfish in it's own way. Kind of self absorbed. I know that's not what you meant or wrote but I'm spinning my own wheels here and to cut myself a break is to free myself from being so concerned about me and that'll give me the oppurtunity to think of other things and people instead.
It's like having a conversation and being so concerned what you're going to say next and trying to come up with something in your mind that you're not really listening and hearing what the other person is saying.
Yeah. I think it's definetly a case of self absorption.
That's perfect. Now I can just tell myself to knock it off because I'm being totally self absorbed. It might actually work.

Get your critic out of there by making it "not you." Pretend you are performing a play and it's an unfriendly theater critic or a bad reviewer on the book of your life :-)

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/08/31/th...=1&oref=slogin

Disassociating yourself from the criticizing element and making fun of it or ignoring it or whatever might get it to pipe down?

throw that tape player away that is lurking in your brain. most of us have one and those tapes play over and over and over........

AND most of the time, people aren't even thinking about us. they're clueless to our behavior.....so, don't beat yourself up, okay? love you, pat

OH gees...we are always so critical of ouselves...wish we could stop this...You were probably great with the cashier and she was thinking...gee I was a nerd with this person...lol...stop being so hard on yourself...you are great!!!! ((((hugs))))

(((((((((( Jax ))))))))))))

I've been there and I think it came from really high anxiety and that's how it manifested for me.

Can you look at the "breaks" you afford those close to you and apply the same to yourself?

Love,

KD

(((((((((((Perna)))))))), (((((((((((Pat))))))))), (((((((Bethsway)))))))) and ((((((((((KD)))))))))))!!!!!
Thank you for your kind words and support.
For me, self love and acceptance is going to be a very long haul. Having friends like you to remind me which way I should be going sure does help me out a lot when I've gone the wrong way and have gotten lost.
Thank you, I appreciate it.

I hear you. I mean, I don't agree with you, but I know how you are feeling and it sucks. How oh how to stop that critic in the back of our minds?

(((Jax)))