Couch 137: Jung's Obsession

My sup came over at the end of the day to tell me that they're pulling 15 people off the project I'm on within the next couple weeks and she asked for me to be on that list. I am first on the list. Yay!! I hate this project sooooo much.

And I see t in an hour to round out a pretty darn good day!

Im just amazed at the beautiful grown up food you cook. Today i had cheese sandwiches and cupcakes for dinner.

I dont really have a plan or structure for anything but breakfast.

Do you feel like you could be honest with T about not being able to control yourself? Maybe you could figure out some sort of safety plan with him that doesn't involve the hospital? Please stay safe...

I don't think he cares if I'm alive or not

That might be paranoia but then again u can never know

I'm going to. Sleep soon.. I'm sorry for being me and being hella annoying

(((jDNA))) i don't think you're annoying. Stay safe.

Just pulled up at t's and a cute lil bunny rabbit ran across the driveway so sweet!

Then this on the symbolism of rabbits should please you:

(((DNA))) please stay safe.

Sorry if I missed any obvious hugs. I don't have the emotional energy to catch up on the couch tonight. I just wanted to check in. I'm not doing great, but I'm feeling better than I did last night.

Also, thanks to those of you who checked in with me. I'm really glad that my T recommended that I find some way to find support from people who get it.

Love you all

Please keep posting jdna

I'm preparing a concert of John Williams soundtrack music and I'm really digging his sense of humor:

Hugs JDNA, you're not annoying.

Although, you know, his letter checks every box state licensing requires of termination letters. Smaug's letter checked none of them. Maybe I should send it to her as a model for the next client she screws around with.

Nah, she'll get so smacked down by the licensing board that she will never make that mistake again. She'll be too scared to terminate anyone! At least that is my hope.

Post away, JD.

You're not being a pest.

Go to the hospital if you need to. Better to go sooner than later and voluntary than forced.

You are not annoying, and I can say with as much certainty as a random person on the internet that does not know you or your T...he cares. It is your paranoia/drug use/bad thoughts that are clouding it. I hope you can be honest with T when you see him next.

I have to see a new psychiatrist. I found out a coworker is moonlighting at the practice.

Hugs, jDNA

Home from t. We had a good, productive session. i'm noticing lately that she's looking older and i don't like that at all. i suppose i should bring that up. She will be turning 67 next month. I know that's not old-old, but it's older than i wish she was, dang it. remember awhile back when i re-wrote my childhood as a fairy tale? well back in February I started writing a "part 2" and never showed it to her. Today I was cleaning out my desk (spring cleaning because I am a pack rat) and I found it in my drawer. I read it and remembered how I had stopped mid-sentence lol. So I took it with me this evening, and read it to her, and she thought it was great. I was still a Princess of course, and she was in it this time around, she is a Sorceress that the Princess is apprenticing under. I stopped reading out loud partway through and said "This is so embarrassing" and she was like "Why?! It's great!!" ha ha

I am never going to stop loving that woman, am I. Sigh.

Holy carp already time for a new couch!

I know! I just noticed that!!

Can you start it, art? Call it Bunnyland or something like that?

Not the Hefner variety, of course.

How about shakespeares sonnet - couch 138 - where the truth lies.

Get it?

Oh im sorry, i forgot about the bunnies. Gopher it

Sonnet 138 is so much better than bunnies!

And if DBC reads PC, she will never get it.

ok i'm on it!!

Couch 138 - Where the Truth Lies