[sinking]

All i have ever asked from T was understanding.
In a single day both my old and new T have proved me i cant have it. They didnt mean it, i think, but i feel so betrayed by them both. I'm so hurt. Feel so abandoned. So alone. No hope. No help. All alone.

[Skeezyks]

I'm so sorry this happened to you. But sadly I'm not surprised. I've not had good experiences with therapists & I don't see one. I've read posts, here on PC, written by members who said their therapists saved their lives. So I presume there must be great therapists out there. Unfortunately I never found one.

I'm not on any psych med's (nor any other med's for that matter.) I do a couple of hours of yoga & other exercises a day. And that has to be my safe harbor. I hope that, in some way you can find something... or someone... who can function as your safe harbor. And I send warm hugs with the hope that it might be so...

[SilentMelodee]

Can you talk to them about it? Call or Email? If I were in your shoes, and could not talk to them, I would write my feelings down in letter form. And if you can, share them with your T's when you see them again. I know your feelings, in my own way, very well, and it's awful, and hopeless, yes. But it doesn't have to stay that way. Write down your feelings, share them at your next sessions, and get those feelings out of you and onto them. And know that as long as you visit here, you are NOT alone. We all walk this path together.

[sinking]

Why did He had to say those invalidating stuff? is it what he really wanted to tell me? why did he keep talking non sense even after i told him i wasnt understanding a single word? it was totally empty, useless and hurtful. did he even hear what i had told him? or just pretended he did? i know he cares, but honestly i expected better than that.

and Why did she even THINK i had anything to do with those stupid kids? group was useful to who? her? not me for sure. why did she think i would have liked opening up to strangers i didnt choose? i couldnt care less about sharing myself with them and i couldnt care less about listening to them whining. actually i hated every single second of the meeting. and how did she dare sharing my personal infos with them? who authorized her? and she only gave HER version of my issues. she couldnt even say it right. it was all distorted. and then how could she judge the little i was saying? not to mention how invalidating, judgmental and non professional she is during individual sessions...

this is angering and hurting me so much. lost hope