The Couch 147: Maximum Break!

Yeah I was the same. The only reason I got off it was because I gained too much weight on it.

Hey couch. Well t responded this morning, said she understands that I am processing a lot of feelings which is natural, she cancelled what we'd scheduled for mid-August as I requested, and said her door is open for a goodbye session in a month or so as I'd also asked for, she said I just have to call. So I feel better that she didn't sound annoyed or mad or anything.

And I feel like I just grew up a little more again. I feel oddly relieved, and a nice sense of freedom. This needed to happen, it really did.

Thanks for putting up with me.

I'm trying to sell these lol

Glad you heard back and that she seemed understanding.

Just colored my hair, mostly to cover the grays that keep popping out in front, but thought I'd try a more reddish-brown tinted on this time instead more my natural medium-dark brown. Afraid it came out a bit more on the reddish side than expected, but we'll see when it dries... It was a mostly natural dye (so no ammonia or bleach), so not like it could be bright red, but more auburn. Maybe if I'm feeling brave I'll post a pic for an hour or so...

I love those! Couldnt' walk with them though, lol

Same
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I like this

I paid $300 for them and wore them maybe 5 times. They are 9" heels

It's weird bc I listed them on Facebook and so far only 2 ppl contact me. Both older men

I opted to not meet up with one. The other said he wasn't interested anymore

Lol

Hi couchies,

Having a rough time today.

Yeah I wouldn't want to meet with and older male stranger either.

WTF... Did they say why they want them?

@Butterfly: Sorry you're having a rough time Is there anything we can do?

Luckily I usually don't suffer side effects from medication. Today has been ROUGH. 4 more hours....

I would think it would be female impersonators etc looking at the shoes. I don't think it is all that odd.

Thank you. I think I'll just hang here if anyone is here and try to distract myself.

(((Artie))) good to hear! ive gotten the impression from my t(s?) that sometimes they are not sure if we need for them to hang on a little tighter, or to let go.

Come to think of it, thats probably why things need to be discussed over a session, rather than by messages: "feeling bad stop more appointments stop". From telegrams to texting. Ive been watching too much Gunsmoke again...

They are awesome. You should definitely be able to sell them.

I feel like starting a thread -- Has therapy made you more indecisive?

I can't seem to make up my mind about T appointments -- with current T or potential new Ts.

After endlessly cancelling and asking to come back with current T, I've started doing that with these brand new Ts as well -- I cancelled earlier (haven't seen her) and then asked to come back (if she's available of course).

I used to have so much guilt and shame about screwing up people's schedules (I still have a lot of guilt with current T -- I've texted her 2 hours prior to session, asking to come in after cancelling and she's been okay with it, at least to my face) but now I'm rather sanguine and kinda think that other people can take care of themselves and ask me to take a hike if needed.

I'm often indecisive in general. While I don't normally cancel appointments I've switched therapists a bit more than I probably should have when I probably should have stayed and worked issues out.

Blleerrggghhhhhhh

Yeah to the first part. I told her in my email that I needed her to help me leave her.... And she did. I feel good about it (right now anyway). Tonight I might feel differently. Nights are always harder with stuff like this.

(((velcro)))

Sending more hugs out to couchies who are hurting and want them.

Well, there's one thing I can say for certain. H is going to be ecstatic, isn't he?

Possibly it's not therapy but where you're at right now?

I would say it has made me more decisive, in that once I decide to do something, I do it, instead of waffling about it for days, weeks, months, years.

Or, that might not be therapy either. Maybe I'd just had enough.