Out of Control - Ignored

Im kinda freaking/ worried. I made a post in survivors forum that keeps bothering me
(beware - Trig)
My Post in Survivors Forum

Its still bothering me, so I bucked up and email my T. I usually don't share dreams I've had here or in therapy. I guess I worry that its so 'overly dramatic' since its not real life. I havent gotten any response from her .. or little here. I hate second guessing whetheer i should have done something. I hate feeling insecure. I hate being vulnerable and somene can chose wehter to be there for me. I hate this whole thing.

I have been so out of control lately. I've been trying to reach out for help, but I'm not sure what will even help. I don't concentrate, get work done, or even sleep. I'm not sure what even to ask my T for.. in terms of help. :-(

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{{ES}} If your dreams is bothering you then I think its right that you contacted your T with it.

(((EV)))

It used to be difficult for me to share dreams with T. Now, I keep my journal and a pen on my night table to I can capture as much as possible as soon as I wake up.

Maybe it is difficult for T to respond to your dream by email.

I do believe they are messages to ourselves from our unconscious. Can you hold out to discuss this with her in-session? Even though they seem dramatic there are symbols within our dreams, that can help us to achieve insights into ourselves. With T's help, maybe you can figure it out. Maybe this is why you feel so distracted lately. Something is trying to get out, or come up.

I hope you feel better. But it sounds like you are doing good work in therapy.

Take gentle care.

((((EV)))) Dreams can be very powerful. I hope you can reach your T for support. I don't think you are being overly dramatic. I often share my dreams with my T and it really helps us make progress in therapy. Dreams are a window into our unconscious.

I think reaching out, itself, is hard to do/learn and wrestling with that issue because of the dream is going to be helpful to you.

In many ways the dream is just a dream so there was no issue with your father and cousin and that you didn't go back and get her in the dream is of no consequence in real life now. Do you still see or talk to your cousin? You could write her a note and tell her you dreamed about and were thinking of her (without telling her the dream) and maybe she could reassure you she is all right?

thank you all.

Maybe yo uare right. I've had another dream also that I've had several times. Perhaps its related or not. In the dream, I'm helping the police investigate a series of murders (like a serial killer or something). I dont remember exactly what he did, but that we held this person in deep disgust. As we investigate and get closer and closer to the killer, eventually clues unravel and i find out that the killer is me, .. i just hid it from myself.