Couch 167 1/2; Tennis Anyone?

This is true. The kid could’ve been a client? Or some other relative? Or the kid of one of her other clients? He would be very curious to me also.

I wrote to my old T because I needed closure and my current T also thought it was a good a idea as well. I wrote it on Friday and I admit I was nervous as heck but I kept it nice and cordial and thanked her for time and kept it very professional not saying why I why I ghosted on her just it was time for me to move on. I admit ghosting and just abruptly saying I’m canceling my appointments probably wasn’t the best but this is why I needed the closure so I could feel better and I did. I don’t think she’ll write back or call me since since I ghosted on her but it definitely felt good to get this gigantic weight of my shoulder. I like my new T and I think he’s a good fit.

I think the swelling is worse. This antibiotic better start kicking in soon. At least I'm not crying anymore.

I emailed my therapist and she does not know him, but she suspects someone sent him to her and that it was a very difficult moment for him. It was hauntingly painful. Knowing her, she will keep her door open between appointments from now on in case he shows up again.

Oh good lord - michael phelps is shilling for therapy

I go to self-checkout machines at the supermarket so I don’t have to deal with people. But now they’ve installed cameras in each machine so I can see myself. The angle is not a flattering one.

I can't sleep. Face hurts too much. Calling in sick tomorrow.

You guys should see how big my nose is ouch

The swimmer?

Target is the only place that does this in my town, but MY GOD, I HATE IT. I just avoid my face in the screen as much as I can. Ugh.

The boy should stay in his lane!

Evening couch. I've had an emotional roller coaster ride lately.

I am royally POed at my pharm manager right now as the schedule for next week is still not posted. WTF?!? The schedule for the future weeks has been getting posted later and later each week. I have other stores asking me about availability 2 weeks out (as schedules are supposed to be done that far in advance), but I can't accept any shifts not knowing when I am on at my store.

I also have been drifting further and further away from my colleagues. My store has changed so much (or maybe I have changed) and it just does not feel like "home" anymore. I have 3 other stores begging me to transfer to them (not knowing my current situation). I called all 3 today to ask if they were serious and if they actually had an opening. All were serious, but only one has a current opening.

So, what did I do?!? I wrote pharm manager a not this morning explaining my feeelings and asking if he would allow me to transfer. I am through. I am done. I want to "start over" somewhere else. I expected to hear from him at some point today (after dropping the note off to another tech to give to him through drive thru).

Earlier this evening, I thought that maybe that was not the best approach and texted him that I was sorry for addressing the issue in a "cowardly" way and asking if there was a time Thursday or Friday that he would be able to talk. I thought I might have poked the bear all evening as I did not yet a response. I got one about 30 minutes ago though saying to stop by the store Friday morning and we could talk. So, it looks like I will need to put on my "big girl" pants and address my frustrations.

The more and more I think about the situation, the more and more I feel like transferign stores would be the best thing to do at this point. He would just have to release me and allow me to. That is the question now...will he? I am no longer happy at my store, but I don't want to give up my pharm tech "career". I think going elsewhere to do what I enjoy is a good option.

I work in the store that has the position open tomorrow night. I will use that to base my decision a bit more. I think I am ready for a change though. Time to move on.

They often choose athletes for this job, because they have credibility with folks who have negative attitudes to MI.

Report back - are you doing hot compresses or tea or anything? You gotta get those linings to unswell and get some air passing thru again before your head explodes (yes, absolutely the scientific explanation!). Can you blow the hair drier at your neck (like under your ears)? That can help unplug your eustachian tubes.

I'm using a cold wet washrag per Dr. Not helping. I can't sleep. I took a pic of my poor face and my nose resembles a Ugh. Gonna try breathing some steam now. I feel miserable. I'm such a baby.

Honestly when i have a sinus infection, i use an electric heating pad on my face. I move it around a lot, cuz your sinuses are like all over the front and middle of your face, and of course you dont want to fall asleep with it. But i figure thats the only way to get the boogers moving around.

And you are not a baby. Having your face and head hurt is the worst. Cuz thats where your brains are

That sounds terrible. Is your h around to take care of you? I know when I had a temp of 103 I desperately wanted someone to come take care of me, bring me OJ, anything.

I think I would come across the same way, but I think we only have a limited amount of emotional energy. It's not that I don't care, i just feel like it's hard enough dealing with my stuff without adding more people to the mix.

You're definitely not being a baby Art. Hopefully the antibiotics will kick in soon.

I hope he will let you transfer because it sounds like a good idea. I would be irritated about the last minute schedule too.

Can't sleep. Too much on my mind. Too frustrated. I need sleep though as I have my student in the morning. I don't want to be a sleep-deprived zombie for her. But, alas, it looks like I will. I have her for two hours, then to come home, eat some lunch, change clothes, and get to the CVS (not my store) I am working at.

I just want Friday to get here, so the unknown will be over. I just want to be at ease.

Yup....still up at 2am in the morning.

I know somebody here had shingles I forgot who. I'm wondering if that's what this is. There's blisters on my cheek now. I'm going to call the Dr in the morning my regular one and beg to be seen tomorrow. I already had a follow up scheduled for my blood work on Thurs but don't wanna wait that long.

I sent a pic of my nose to h and he wants me to go to the hospital. Um, no.

"Dear Manager,
My personal situation has changed and it would be convenient for me to transfer to another store. Can we please meet to talk about this?
Thanks!"