Couch 167 1/2; Tennis Anyone?

It seems like you're always having exams, Lemoncake!

Dogs really are the best (and cats are lovely, too, just never had one). Lunatic dog was so sweet to me this past night - the first night without my dog. He usually likes to sleep in an armchair in my living room, but last night, he slept on the end of my bed. I am still in bed now, though I have of course gotten up earlier to feed him and take him out. He hasn't left me. I love animals. They are so empathic. His owner is coming to get him in about 3 hours. I'll miss his crazy self, especially now that I am all alone except for my ratties. I've been torturing myself by looking at rescues that I can't have. I don't know how I'll survive without a dog.

And thank you to everyone who expressed their condolences yesterday. It really meant a lot.

Edit: My roommate hasn't even noticed anything is amiss. I think I hate her a little bit.

I sent my therapist an email yesterday afternoon telling him I was feeling suicidal but that I was doing/had done the things I do to cope. He didn't respond, which I guess was okay because I told him I didn't need anything from him. Now I feel so ashamed that I don't want to go see him today. I'm supposed to leave in 35 minutes. sigh.

Her behavior does sound extreme and she needs all the support she can get.But you need to take care of yourself before you can be there for others. The hospital trips sound draining- how is H doing now?

Una I not so secretly want attention from you..

I could understand why you don't want to see him, but you have nothing to be ashamed about NP. You were very brave to be honest with him and I would have liked an acknowledgement in that case.

I hope you do go and talk to him about this.

Ooh, you would have loved this. There was a guy on the weight watchers website who looked EXACTLY like Niles. So he was COMPLAINING about his appearance! I was like, are you crazy, you look like Niles another lady agreed with me. Hes too young for me, but you could have him!

Eta - i just saw your other post. Dogs and cats i think are emotionally wiser and more attuned than many people. They HAVE to read body language.

When I reread what I sent him I just want to hide. It seems so stupid and pathetic. I guess a response would have made me feel better.

My cousins daughter i swear married a justin long lookalike!!! I cant believe you said that!!! Im like, THEY dont even know who he is! Ive always had a huge crush on him. Then i see him at family gatherings and im all like oh um...

Story time:

At work, there was some girls in the office who asked me to get rid of a spider for them (I'm fearless around spiders) so I look for something to catch him/her with to take him/her outside and rehome Incey Wincey to the outside, before I have chance to find anything, they disturb Incey Wincey when he/she is not harming anyone, just sitting in a corner minding his/her business, they decide to kill Incey Wincey then when they know he/she is dead they run squealing from Incey Wincey's squashed body

(I have no idea if Incey Wincey was a him or a her)

H is okay. He's still in stomach pain though. His blood test and ct scan came back normal. They think it might be gastroperisis (however you spell it). I don't know. With his heart and stomach, no one seems to know what's going on. He'll see a gastroenterologist on Tuesday, so we're hoping for answers then. Poor guy thinks he's going to die. He's trying to get everything in order in case he dies. He's really scared. I am too, though I also know he's the biggest baby when he doesn't feel well.

I've sent my T a few emails I would describe as just "O_o". Personally I would never think asking for help when you're struggling with suicidal feelings would ever be pathetic or stupid.

I've read your post in the Dear T thread, I think it would be really helpful to talk about contact outside of session. Did he normally reply back before?

Sometimes he responds but usually not. I can ask him to respond. We've talked about email a lot.

Hehe I'm actually giggling right now. It was love when I first saw him in Jeepers Creepers and then in He's just not into you, I was hoping he would make me the exception. I might settle for like Tobey Maguire though.

Sorry @@ but Una and I are supposed to be together.

Sorry @@ but Una and I are supposed to be together.