Couch 174: Good Lord, Those People

I have Piaf later. I’m playing with the idea that she’s an undercover agent posing as a therapist. Last session, she told me “emotions just get in the way.”

I cried on the phone and said that I was having suicidal thoughts.

The highlight of the convo- she said she was on holiday!

Interesting thought and it wouldn't surprise me if you're already constructing a story around that idea!

From watching the show Una bomber on Netflix,I would agree with you. Don't underestimate people. She could be a sleeper agent. It would make sense- she gets access to all of our deepest thoughts...

I've been in trazadone and Zoloft previously . I didn't find them help them helpful. I felt more suicidal on trazadone, and the shrinks advice was just to keep going up. Think i was on 150mg before I came off it. Zoloft just made me really sick.

Thank you for all the hugs and posts guys- it really does mean a lot. I don't know what I would do without you guys.

Apparently I have 'hurt my fathers feelings' and he'll 'talk to me about it' when he comes out for a visit. It's amazing how quickly one can feel small. I'm in my mid 30's. I'm an adult. Maybe I am just so ****ed up and off my rocker I am losing it. I don't know anymore. I need a hug and I need people to just tell me it's okay to just be me. Why do I let the feelings and reaction of one person affect me so.

But it's not just some random person, it's a parent. They can continue to have strong effects on us no matter how old we are because of the relationship.

It's stupid. It sucks. Why can't he just be supportive of something that makes me feel better, that is good for me?

I like how you made it two words as though it referred to Our Una, the love bomber.

Hugs Lemoncake. Trazodone gave me horrible nightmares when I was on it. I took it anyway for awhile because I needed the sleep even if it was nightmare-filled...

I took Zoloft too and it literally saved my life at the time. I'm sorry it made you sick! (((Lemoncake)))

hey everyone. I haven't posted in this thread before but i lurk on the psychotherapy forum a lot. I'm going through an in-between therapists period right now.

Welcome to the couch Nikon!

I didn't realize it was one word. xD

I hope you session goes well Artie.

Thank you for being you.

Hiiiiii!

Well I got my test results and I don't need surgery! Thank you for all the pocket riders.

Sleeper agent sounds like a good description of what i do.

Cat-like reflexes - when somebody sleeps 18 hours a day, youre probably always startling them awake.

Wonderful news

I hadn't been able to read the couch for the last few days, and it can really take a long time to catch up. Big hugs / appropriate displays of support all around.

This morning, I took a walk past my therapist's office for whatever reason. She has two kayaks on top of her car, so I know she's off to (fancy beach town) this afternoon. It's the first time I've done a walk by on one of her work days since I've stopped seeing her. I'm tempted to do it again this afternoon, which makes me feel crazed! (I won't) I can tell some of my intense feelings are dissipating, and as dumb as I feel, I think being "near" her without seeing her is helping me in an exposure therapy kind of way. I hope to reach out to her in two weeks to say a "proper" goodbye.

I ordered a book from an Amazon merchant for my fall class.

Outside of the envelope. That is a lot of stamps. The 1984 Olympics? Fiorello LaGuardia? A 6 cent stamp? Someone bought a whole bunch of stamps a long long time ago and is still using them.

Yay!

Ooooo I love that!

LOL - Back in the olden days, the prices went up faster than you could use up your stamps! So yeah some of us have uh small collections of miscellaneous denominations...

It makes perfect sense to me not crazed.