Couch 176: The happy cake couch

I would feel....cared about? Important? Perhaps the word I want is simply “connected.”

It reminds me of the conversation we recently-ish had where people tallied up (mentally or in print) the hours of therapy we have had. So I became aware that my T has spent literally hundred of hours interacting with me and I am sure quite a few thinking about and planning where our work might go next. That’s no joke, and while it’s not the same as a reciprocal relationship, it is a real kind of intimacy.

At my uni, I went to one of the satellite campuses so there were students of all ages. When I attended classes on the "main" campus, it was mostly younger students. While I enjoyed both, I liked the one where there was a variety of ages the best because it brought so much more to the discussions. I was on the younger side but older than some of the students so I had some work experience and stuff but there were definitely a lot of people older than me that had really unique experiences that I enjoyed hearing about. And then the really young ones just out of high school were fun because of what they were into and what their passions were. But in grad school it was mostly older people. And mostly women. My mom kept saying, I don't know why you can't find a man at school (like that was the point of getting the degrees) and I was like, because it's almost all women! The profs were about 50/50 male and female but mostly older.

This bruise on my elbow/forearm that I don’t remember getting is starting to get embarassing. It’s slightly larger in diameter than a baseball and entirely purple, i.e., conspicuous in short sleeves.

It doesn’t hurt at all, but it’s easily the biggest bruise I’ve ever had.

I hope the bruise heals fast. I'm glad it doesn't hurt.

Ugh! That sucked. One, the group is far away and only has street parking. Two, I think I wasted $120. Because I was in the hospital 2 weeks ago, she said that's a red flag. She also thinks I need a support group, not a DBT group. And she said that the group consists of mostly 20 years old. I guess that's not too much of a problem since it's not a support group. She suggested her Mindful Eating group. I told her that yes I have issues with eating, that not something I want to focus on right now.

I'll talk to my T, but I don't get the feeling it's going to work out.

Have you tried lightly massaging it? I bruise myself doing housework, it looks appalling. I get those old lady forearm bruises like you see when they show really old people on tv and their arm skin looks like its gonna fall right off. If its NOT bruised, it looks healthy and bouncy enough!

it's so funny how earlier in the week i was missing t so much. now i'm all eh, i'll see her next week whatev. eta: perhaps my class starting and finding out I get to work at home soon sorta helped with that a little heh

I'm sorry, Scarlet. Are there any other DBT groups in your area, maybe?

So, I'm really confused right now. I just told my mom about our plans for the beach, and how H and D are going down a day earlier than me, fully expecting her to freak out about it. But...she was totally fine? Maybe it was in my more matter-of-fact delivery. Perhaps it's T's influence on me, like maybe I just said it more assertively than I normally would have, instead of being all "Is this OK?" Well, one positive thing to tell T about tomorrow.

Are you a hero in the courtroom?

Everyone remembers how funny I am. But I'm also kind and wise!

Yes, yes you are!

Did you point out the mistake?

Love her! Oranges are not the Only Fruit was a book I had to read for a college course a long time ago and have read it many times since!!

Is there a fancy biological word meaning "to wake up from hibernation"?
If not, I'll have to use "dehibernate".

Huh, I picked up those books some time back. A friend suggested them due to my background.

Good reads...?

Not yet...

K.I.S.S.

Good morning couchies

Morning, whisper.

Hope today is kind to you, and the rest of the Couch.

I woke up with a heavy heart and cried. I had a dream, :



I texted the first girl asking if she was okay and sent the 4th girl as message saying I didn't understand why there was distance between because she had stopped replying to my messages. Ho hum-I think the fact that all of them are women might be significant.

Bring on the chocolate .

*offers multiple types of chocolate *

Feel free to pick or eat all of them

Watermelon colour scheme!