Couch 180:

We have a standing appointment tomorrow. I really wish I could talk to him today. I need to cry with someone vs alone.

My former T used to. Just so that if I was having a crises and she wasn't responding it wouldn't escalate the crises. Don't know if current T would. She doesn't seem to care as much.

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If it’s any comfort your posts made me realize that I completely forgot my anniversary with 2ex was Saturday.

It will get better.

Yes, because going out of the country usually means email contact or no contact, and she would want me to know if somebody else was checking her voicemail. That said, since I see her twice a week, she can barely go on a long weekend without me noticing her absence due to being rescheduled.

I’m thinking about dumping Info again. I stupidly asked her for some supportive words by email last night, which she sent, along with a longwinded explanation about rescheduling our next appointment. She devoted more space to the rescheduling than to being supportive.

It’s my old annoyance with her that she’s not focused or paying very much attention. Same feeling I get when I tell her something for the fifth time.

I’m irritated with a therapist. In other words, it is a day that ends in Y.

I would be irritated with that as well.

I swear the more I read here the more those people sound like a joke. I’m sure plenty of people have good experiences as well and I’m sure there are probably some good therapists out there, but my money can be spent elsewhere.

I’m sitting in the eye doctor and it smells like the people in the waiting room across from me should change their toddlers diaper. I am not trying to be judgemental at all but the child looks to be at least 3. Unless there is some disability or medical reason (which is not visible to the eye) I’m sitting here wondering why the child is still in a diaper.

My English professor has lost her damn mind. I'm serious. I think she must be having a psychotic break or something. After losing 4 weeks of the semester, her reaction is to add assignments to the syllabus to "account for lost instructional time." Ok, now maybe this would make sense EXCEPT this is a ****ing ONLINE course. There IS no instructional time. Whatever assignments were planned initially are, by definition, supposed to fulfill the requirements of the course. So it's really irrelevant to the online courses that we missed 4 weeks EXCEPT that it sucks that we have to complete more assignments in less time. And no, we couldn't have just kept going as normal because (in my classes, at least) only certain modules were open. Adding new, extra assignments to make up for "instructional time" that never existed in the first place is completely illogical and feels like a huge slap in the face. This semester is going to be hard enough without this professor adding insult to injury and making things even worse for literally no reason. I am so disgusted right now.

Name change, official.
Last day at current job, tomorrow.
First day of new job, Monday.

My sister and her 10mth old moved in with me.... so that's been a challenge.

I'm not feeling as bad as I was a few days ago. It's less than a week now until I see my T. I wish I had seen her when I was feeling really bad. I still don't feel great, but I can probably get through it. That's a problem with not having a weekly appointment. By the time I get to the appointment, I've already dealt with whatever was going on with me and now I'm afraid I'm going to have nothing to say. Sigh. Kit.

Both of those would bug me too. How long have you been seeing Info for? Would you consider trying a new T alongside Info?

Could you complain to whoever is running the courses?

R offered me an second session slot this week for friday. But I don't think I want to take it. Today's session was odd- and I did put a Frodo LOTR quote in there. I just feel different, since I came back.

Perhaps writing a few points in a word doc every day and taking that with you when you go to session will let her know how you're struggling.

Nice to see you ellahmae! Hugs

That deserves a holy carp!!!

Well... good to know you dont need your nose examined!

The monthly first tuesday city emergency test alarms went off at 1 pm per usual and i got sentimental for t cuz i was so often in his office when it happened

Good to see you whisper

Maybe the toddler is stubborn as all get out and refuses to use the potty even though he's fully capable and it's become an awful battle of wits to get the child trained.

Not that I'm going through that with my 3yr old or anything

I would find this very irritating too. As someone else said, too many of these people seem like a bad joke.

(Angry grrrrr)

I'm thinking about it. The professors for my other two online courses have not added additional assignments. I suspect either my English prof or the English department as a whole have misinterpreted the guidelines issued for in-person classes. I'm not sure if it would be best to approach my English professor about how illogical what she's done is or not. The worst I would expect from a reasonable professor would be a reply that she's just doing what she's been instructed to do by her department head, and hopefully referring me to that person with my concerns. However, if this is something she's done on her own, I cannot assume she is in any way a reasonable professor who will respond adequately or appropriately. In that case, I would be in a bad situation, since my only other recourse would be to go over her head.

I'm really just trying to decide if I should risk reaching out to her, or if I should email her, the department chair, and the dean from an email account that doesn't have my name attached.

Nope. Info is the seventh seal, the seventh therapist I’ve seen these past three years. After her, I’m done. No more exposing myself to them.

Actual quote from Jesse the SI hotline worker: "it sounds like you're tired of fighting. do you think that's helping you?"

Oh jee whiz Jesse I didn't realize that being tired was working against me. I'll stop being tired now. Thank you so much.