PTSD symptom?

I've always done it. But this week I've barrels hyper aware of me doing it.
"it" being trawling traumatic stories and then feeling a compulsion to blurt them out to family/work colleagues/T.

I'm aware of reactions. Normally blank bored faces or confusion.

Then I feel so alone with the feeling of trauma inside.

This week has been no different, apart from my feeling like I'm watching myself do it.

I've had a conversation with T before where is I see a bad car crash I have to look. The same compulsion is there. City have to look.

T mentioned "ambulance chasers" where people actually see an emergency vehicle on its blues and have to follow it.

She says it's a way of trying to get the feelings one is feeling inside to the outside. Watching trauma rather than feeling it.

I guess my blurting out traumatic stories is the same.

Anyone else find themselves doing this?

Sure. Horrific, senseless suffering is part of human existence - and yet we all have a kind of tacit agreement not to talk about it. Of course one feels the need to explore it, make sense of it, ask other people if they can see it, too.

Yes, I do experience something similar. I keep watching traumatic stories of people on yt.