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#1
Oct 21, 2018, 07:02 PM
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I was just reading some of my own posts from about a year ago. How quickly things can change! And how time blends together in my head. I saw a post in which I talked about my therapist joking and saying, "you can buy your own chairs. I know I have nice chairs!." And it seems like he said that to me so much more recently than a year ago.
I miss him so much. I don't know what to do. The rest of my life is a long time... |
 ChickenNoodleSoup, LonesomeTonight, Lrad123, ScarletPimpernel, SlumberKitty
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#2
Oct 21, 2018, 07:03 PM
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I don't. I wish they could all be deleted BUT...I am just now seeing what happened with your T
 How terrible, you are the second user here who had this happen recently. It's my worst fear. I can't even imagine how you are feeling I am so so sorry.
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#3
Oct 21, 2018, 07:20 PM
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Yes I read old posts and do not remember ever writing them.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors. |
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#4
Oct 21, 2018, 07:21 PM
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I usually don’t. I’m sorry this happened.
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#5
Oct 21, 2018, 07:29 PM
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I've gone back and read some old posts. Also old emails I sent to ex-T and ex-MC. And it's really kind of fascinating to see the difference in my tone. Like I think I remember things being better than they were. And I see how some of what I said to them in email and/or Dear T as being so...subservient. I'm not sure how much that says about my relationship with each of them vs. who and how I am today. But it's definitely enlightening.
And hugs, RaineD... |
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#6
Oct 21, 2018, 07:41 PM
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I read some of my old posts and think I was such a child. He didn't let me sit on the floor and that upset me so I said I wanted to bring him a rattlesnake! It was a joke, but still.
I miss him so much. |
| ChickenNoodleSoup, LonesomeTonight, Lrad123
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#7
Oct 21, 2018, 08:00 PM
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I dont normally but I did recently and so much of it broke my heart. T and I experienced so much together. I figure some day I will go back to it but right now it brings me so far down. It is the same with all her emails that I have saved for the last 5 years in a special folder.
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#8
Oct 21, 2018, 08:02 PM
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How terrible, you are the second user here who had this happen recently. It's my worst fear.
I can't even imagine how you are feeling I am so so sorry.[/QUOTE]Next to the loss of my mom. Losing my T is by far the most painful thing I have experienced.
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#9
Oct 21, 2018, 10:20 PM
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Losing mine is definitely the most painful thing I've ever experienced.
He was such an angel. I don't know why I complained about him so much. |
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#10
Oct 22, 2018, 01:00 AM
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I actually try not to read my old posts, especially when ex-T abandoned me. They're super triggering. I have had others read my old posts and bring something to my attention.
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#11
Oct 22, 2018, 11:12 AM
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I don't read my old posts on here, but I write down everything I remember about each session for myself on 3-4 pages usually. When I'm feeling down, I sometimes read random stuff from there. It makes me feel less alone and helps me remember things I thought were nice.
I'm sorry about what has happened. Don't beat yourself up about things you said, I'm sure your T appreciated to work with you and wouldn't have wanted you to feel bad about the way you acted. |
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#12
Oct 22, 2018, 03:02 PM
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my posts from when I first joined 6 years ago are pretty much nonsense
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#13
Oct 22, 2018, 03:15 PM
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((((((((((RaineD)))))))))))I haven't personally gone back and read old posts from here but I haven't been here that long. However, I have gone back and read old emails to/from my former T. And I have a couple of voicemails that even though they aren't applicable now, they still help me because I can hear her voice. Kit
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