Feeling like t us disconnected- not interested.

Lately, I feel like t is not as receptive or interested as she usually is. I catch her looking at the clock, looking out the window.
She forgets she said things or denies it. Not sure which one it is but it’s happening.

I brought it up to t a few weeks ago, she denied it and said she didn’t feel that way, she felt like she was present but that wasn’t my experience.

I miss t- I feel like she has checked out. I told her that I still didn’t trust her since she reported my abuser. Maybe that’s something to do with it. I feel like I haven’t changed though.

I am not justifying her behaviour, but it seems unlikely to me that your response to her, attitude to therapy, and feelings of trust won't have changed in the light of her doing something as significant as reporting your abuser. Reporting is a big thing to bring into the relationship; something has surely shifted in the between.

I hear what you are saying and it’s inevitable that things would change between us.
I did change towards her directly after the reporting but I feel my ambivalence and resistance towards her is gone, yes, there is still a little anger towards her but I don’t express it unless she says something I don’t agree with.

You might not be explicitly expressing your anger, but is it seeping out into the room anyway?

Alternatively, maybe she has changed towards you but is not yet aware of it. If one of you have changed, the other will be affected too.

I think both of us have changed and I feel as though we don’t trust each other. It really hurts because I miss the old t.
I am more cautious about what I bring to therapy and maybe she is reacting to me not sharing as much as I used to. Thanks for your help btw