Couch 182: Spiced Gingerbread.

Hi, all.

Session in two hours - is anyone around to pocket ride?

Hi, all.

Session in two hours - is anyone around to pocket ride?

Hi, all.

Session in two hours - is anyone around to pocket ride?

What movie were you gonna see? I had to go to the post office, so i went to see "Free Solo". It was AWESOME!!! I gotta start taking myself out on Artist Dates again.

It got out at about 5 and the almost full moon was just up. So it was still pretty big.

I got a new puffer coat, this one is long almost to my ankles. It wasnt that cold today, but i was noticeably more comfortable on the bus. There is usually a draft on the bus, but i was all cuddly and warm. But not TOO hot when i stopped in the drugstore.

I was kind of in a funk this morning, an existential "what is the point of all of this anyway?," a "therapy and recovery and trying to make things better are all stupid" kind of a funk.

Today, my oldest came home just totally inspired by one of his teachers after he turned in a project and the teacher asked if he'd worked professionally in the field and suggested he consider it as a career. His face was lit up. I watched the tail end of my middle son's dress rehearsal for his upcoming show and was struck by his stage presence, his bearing and his smile and focus, and the way he came off stage glowing. And my youngest spent the afternoon with me, doing thoughtful things for other people: He made his brother's birthday cake and picked out birthday presents for his brother and his friend, really taking the time to think about what they like, and he was funny and helpful and considerate. They're such remarkable people, and seeing them really come into their own selves, comfortable in their skin, is so delightful.

I certainly can't take credit for them becoming who they are meant to be, but I am suddenly grateful that I have worked pretty darn hard to create and regain the kind of stability in their lives that they have that opportunity. They give me faith in the future.

(Now I am going to post before I get all awkward about what a sap I am and erase the whole thing.)

Hi, all.

Session in two hours - is anyone around to pocket ride?

Yes. In the shower. I'm so old, that I remember smoking while making rounds at the hospital.

Years ago, when printers first came out, I set one on fire when I dropped a lit ash. It was back in the days when those long, long, long reams of perforated paper went through the printer. We had to evacuate the unit. The Sisters of Our Lady of Perpetual Guilt Hospital were not amused.

I finally gave up smoking a couple of decades ago. I was leaning way out of the window trying to get in a last drag before "quitting" yet again - I hit my head so hard on the window that I knocked myself out and woke up in the ER, getting stitches from a 4th year med student. Never, ever get stitches from an MS-IV. It was enough to make me quit for good.

Last night in truly random dreams, I was working in a store that had just remodeled. Then, all of a sudden, someone crashed their car into the store and drove up one side of it as we all rushed to the other side to safety. Then the driver of the car got out, stood on top of a platform (or something) in the store and sang a verse of "I've Had the Time of My Life" (or whatever it's called) from Dirty Dancing, then ran off. (No, I had not just seen that movie.)

Last night in truly random dreams, I was working in a store that had just remodeled. Then, all of a sudden, someone crashed their car into the store and drove up one side of it as we all rushed to the other side to safety. Then the driver of the car got out, stood on top of a platform (or something) in the store and sang a verse of "I've Had the Time of My Life" (or whatever it's called) from Dirty Dancing, then ran off. (No, I had not just seen that movie.)

You think you’re building a new life/solving problems, but you’re worried someone/thing will ruin it and enjoy doing so?

I am having 10 people over today. The cooking is fine, but I hate the cleaning.

Leave the mess and call a housekeeper. For a small fee you can sit with your feet up while someone else cleans your home.

I am having 10 people over today. The cooking is fine, but I hate the cleaning.

I saw that at the bookstore today. Looked interesting. The title made me think that it's not a bad goal to be just a little bit happier than you already are, instead of having to go from not happy to HAPPY !!!!

And how cool is this?: We were at the bookstore in the first place because my youngest wanted to buy a book for his friend's birthday. Most of my kids' friends still like "cool" books and card/board games for presents.