[coolibrarian]

54 and up is "severe depression." I scored 57. It's a wonder I manage to get out of bed in the morning. Last night I set my clock earlier, but still didn't get out of bed earlier, so another morning without a shower. You don't want to know how many mornings there haven't been showers. Let's just say that only 2 people live in my house, and my water bill has decreased by over 50%.

I see my Pdoc at 11:30. Last night I texted my T, asked for her support and she responded. I felt a little better, and did sleep, but am sitting here at work, shaking.

I am so lethargic. And, yet, anxious and shaking at the same time! Do you think my Pdoc will ask me a bunch of questions and/or use a depression scale with me (i.e., Beck Depression Inventory)? I hope there is some guidance coming from him.

Everyone always says, "Remember to breathe." I am guilty of saying it myself, at times. But, mostly, it's kind of an insult to me (although I know the people saying it have absolutely no intention of insulting me!!), because I have lung disease, and breathing can be, at times, difficult for me.

And before anyone chastises me about smoking, I have NEVER taken any tobacco products in my life, so no judgement, PLEASE.

Signed,
Falling apart, but hanging on,
Cool

[ChickenNoodleSoup]

I hope you manage to go see your Pdoc today! It's good you're trying to hold on.

I don't know what exactly he'll do, does he already know you're currently struggling with depression? If so, hopefully he assesses how bad it is and talks to you in whatever way is helpful to you. If not, I think it'd be good to tell him straight away that you're currently struggling with something you think is depression. Then you guys are on the same page and you can be assessed properly.

I hope things go well. Remember that people, at least on here, are there to talk and that hopefully soon things will change again and you'll feel better.

[nottrustin]

Originally Posted by coolibrarian

54 and up is "severe depression." I scored 57. It's a wonder I manage to get out of bed in the morning. Last night I set my clock earlier, but still didn't get out of bed earlier, so another morning without a shower. You don't want to know how many mornings there haven't been showers. Let's just say that only 2 people live in my house, and my water bill has decreased by over 50%.

I see my Pdoc at 11:30. Last night I texted my T, asked for her support and she responded. I felt a little better, and did sleep, but am sitting here at work, shaking.

I am so lethargic. And, yet, anxious and shaking at the same time! Do you think my Pdoc will ask me a bunch of questions and/or use a depression scale with me (i.e., Beck Depression Inventory)? I hope there is some guidance coming from him.

Everyone always says, "Remember to breathe." I am guilty of saying it myself, at times. But, mostly, it's kind of an insult to me (although I know the people saying it have absolutely no intention of insulting me!!), because I have lung disease, and breathing can be, at times, difficult for me.

And before anyone chastises me about smoking, I have NEVER taken any tobacco products in my life, so no judgement, PLEASE.

Signed,
Falling apart, but hanging on,
Cool

Oh Cool no judgement just warm caring thoughts. I will be nestled in your pocket today. I don't know what your pdoc will do but it seems like he really wants to help. Glad you will be able to see him and perhaps get some reluef.

[seeker33]

I'm with you. You want to get help, you want to feel better and you are still fighting. That's most important.
Sending caring thoughts to you. Please let us know how things are going.

[SlumberKitty]

I hope your PDOC appointment goes well. I hope you get some support. I'm glad your T texted you back. Keep writing here if you want. We're listening. Sending you ((hugs)) Kit.

[coolibrarian]

I saw my Pdoc and he is increasing the dose of one of my meds. And, I'll see him again this coming Friday. He agreed with my self-diagnosis of major depressive episode, and he understands the reasons why. This is not brief therapy, so far; we can talk about that if I want to, but he wants to get this episode under control. Thanks for all my pocket-riders!
xoxo

[velcro003]

that’s good! i took it just to see and it gave me a 61. i feel like i must have over-stated some stuff.