Urgent Situation

My car is still broken down and I’m out of medicine. I’m already sick. The lady down the street doesn’t understand the urgency and the suffering I’m in. I don’t now what to do. My head hurts so horribly.

I'm sorry you are in a bad place! I hope you'll find a way to get your meds.

My mind is going into a dark place. I’m all alone. I have no one for support.

Call your doctor or your pharmacy. See if there are ways to mail you medication. You can actually arrange it to always being mailed to you.

I’d bring your meds to you if you were in my area. Don’t know where you at

Definitely ring the pharmacy- some of them deliver by car as well as by mail.

I haven’t called The doctors office because I don’t think there’s anyone there. The problem with the shipment is that it’s from the manufacturer because I’m in a patient assistance program.

I called the pharmacy about the withdrawals but she didn’t even know what the medicine was so that wasn’t helpful.

I sent that lady who wouldn’t take me to the pharmacy an article about the dangers of abruptly stopping medications. I don’t think she cares.

I have a strong urge to SH just to stop this awful feeling. That medicine was so not worth this.

Who is the lady down the street? Your friend?

No, the lady goes to my sister’s church.

Maybe she read the article. She texted me and asked if my sister was ready with the prescriptions. I’ve never sent my sister with prescriptions before so I hope everything goes smoothly and hopefully she comes back with the 3 meds.

Uber? Taxi?

Call manufacturer?

I hope my doctor has a cancellation next week. I really need to see him although I’m kinda angry at him for sending the mobile crisis unit to my house 2 days ago because they said I sounded very anxious and worried on the phone. He is really jumpy with everything.

Is it because he’s only 36?

That would be an option if I had the money. I am broke for this month.

I would but when I see my doctor, I’m going to tell him no more.

I don’t understand. I’m on 2 antidepressants and I still feel depressed and I hate telling my doctor that.

And then he upsets me because when I tell him I trust him, he doesn’t believe that.

Do you live in acity? Cities often have buses or subways? Even walking could be an option if it isnt that far. Or if you have anyone to call to give you a ride?

Im sure youve thought about these things but- maybe try again. I was in a similar situation a couple of weeks ago but I was able to figure out the bus schedule for my city and take that.

Also- depending on how far you are from the pharmacy- an uber or lyft might be your best bet. They dont tend to be that expensive if you dont get one during a busy time/surge- and it might just be worth dropping 10 dollars for.

It’s likely nothing to do wuth his age but something to do with you sounding unwell and him worrying about you.

You mentioned church. Can you call your priest/pastor and ask for assistance? There might be somebody there to give you a ride or get you meds.

I wish I did live in the city but I live in the country. No public transportation and even a short trip down the road is $30.

The first month getting rides wasn’t as hard but it almost going into the third month and everyone is tired of it.

I may have to start taking Uber to my doctor’s appointments. After the incident the other day, I knew I wasn’t well but I wasn’t on any of my meds at the time.

Coming off of that antidepressant gave me a lot of suicidal thoughts and it is scary because at one moment, I knew if I went by the bridge, I probably wouldn’t be alive.

They finally got back with my meds and I felt better.

Are you in the us?

Yes, they said I was emailing and calling the office about something and I was also crying.

I am glad that he carees about me. I like him a lot even though he often frustrates me in therapy. I guess he has to break through the walls and defensiveness.

I’m so ashamed to face him and the office manager after the other day. I’m humiliated. I hope he doesn’t throw me out.

Please everyone help support me through my therapy with him because I don’t want him to give up on him.

I don’t go to that church and believe it or not, they are often meaner than people I know who don’t go to church. And they love to gossip.

The church people take my sister back and forth to work and has very often came home in tears because that lady can be mean.

I’m going to have to avoid the people who pull me down because I want to work hard at living.

I may be getting wheels soon. I may be taking over payments on this guy’s Motorcycle or car. I will drive anything to get back to my safe place of healing.

I am glad that I stayed alive yesterday.

And I like my T a lot and he’s good but I kind of feel like I’m pushing him away and I don’t want him to think I’m not trying.

Yes, I’m in the US.

Thanks for being there for me yesterday.

I was in such a dark place that I considered walking to the bridge.

In session with him on Wednesday, I told him that nobody would care if I died.

The lawyers office over my mom’s estate treats me like trash. And lost a “so called” friend and I know it’s better not to be friends with her anymore but I don’t really have many other friends.

I don’t think my life matters.