Couch 192: The Rainbow Cupcake Couch

Apr 01, 2019, 04:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Echos Myron redux

It's not irreversible is it?

yes i think it might be irreversible as i would be a new client now and he isnt taking new clients and hasnt for over year, so maybe i could go on a waiting list. i dont know. i am going to give it 2 weeks and see if i change my mind. He has probably given my spot away already.

Echos Myron redux · Apr 01, 2019, 05:13 AM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

yes i think it might be irreversible as i would be a new client now and he isnt taking new clients and hasnt for over year, so maybe i could go on a waiting list. i dont know. i am going to give it 2 weeks and see if i change my mind. He has probably given my spot away already.

If you were my client, I wouldn't be classing you as a new client. And if he's not taking new clients, perhaps your spot won't be filled. It's worth asking if/when you feel you want to return.

Apr 01, 2019, 06:56 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

welcome back Artie!

Thanks Lemon! I never can stay away very long.... I missed y'all.

Apr 01, 2019, 07:30 AM

Questions of the day inside artie's mind: it's going on 7 weeks now since I last saw t. I'm feeling like disappearing on her was wrong esp since my last session I was a bit of an emotional mess. I don't want more therapy. But I want her to know that I'm doing much better than I was at that time. Has too much time passed? Did I miss my chance to say goodbye? Am I stupid even wanting to say goodbye? It just feels wrong not to when we had such a long therapy relationship. Its also - I think until I do tell her goodbye I'll keep perseverating on this....

Apr 01, 2019, 07:39 AM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

yes i think it might be irreversible as i would be a new client now and he isnt taking new clients and hasnt for over year, so maybe i could go on a waiting list. i dont know. i am going to give it 2 weeks and see if i change my mind. He has probably given my spot away already.

I can't imagine you'd just suddenly be classified a new client. Hugs BCM.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 01, 2019, 07:41 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Questions of the day inside artie's mind: it's going on 7 weeks now since I last saw t. I'm feeling like disappearing on her was wrong esp since my last session I was a bit of an emotional mess. I don't want more therapy. But I want her to know that I'm doing much better than I was at that time. Has too much time passed? Did I miss my chance to say goodbye? Am I stupid even wanting to say goodbye? It just feels wrong not to when we had such a long therapy relationship. Its also - I think until I do tell her goodbye I'll keep perseverating on this....

Could you maybe send her a letter or an email? Without necessarily expecting a response? (OK, I imagine the latter would be difficult.)

Apr 01, 2019, 07:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Lemoncake

I'm still in reputure mode with R and have been for the past month..I wish I didn't send him the gift card, but I did. Last week I did have a breakdown and I couldn't reach him, which was the same thing that happened the last time in january. I feel like he isn't there when I really need him.

I dreamt that I was talking to a new counselor in a hall as students went by.

I had previously received an email about free counseling linked to my school but the location is actually an hour away from me, but I emailed asking if we could do a phone/ skype session instead of in person.

Hugs Lemon. Rupture mode sucks. Good luck with the school counseling thing hope they can phone/Skype.

Apr 01, 2019, 07:45 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Could you maybe send her a letter or an email? Without necessarily expecting a response? (OK, I imagine the latter would be difficult.)

I've thought about that, thank you for validating my thought process. But it would definitely have to be a physical letter, as email I would want a response. I think a physical letter may be the way to go. I mailed her one once a long time ago and was able to not expect a response so maybe I could do that again. I think maybe calling her might seem more like I want to come back when I don't. But then a letter also feels like I'm too chicken to call. I don't know.

unaluna · Apr 01, 2019, 09:01 AM

Artie - why do you want her to know? There isnt absolution. Who are you trying to convince? I am coming up against the same impulse to call my t, its our anniversary at the end of the month, i thought maybe thats a good time to go back. But WHO would be going back? Thats the person i cant face.

Yet.

Apr 01, 2019, 09:06 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Artie - why do you want her to know? There isnt absolution. Who are you trying to convince? I am coming up against the same impulse to call my t, its our anniversary at the end of the month, i thought maybe thats a good time to go back. But WHO would be going back? Thats the person i cant face.

Yet.

I guess there really are no shoulds here, huh. That old good little girl instinct or something. Good food for thought, thanks and on further thought perhaps I should just leave well enough alone.

LostOnTheTrail · Apr 01, 2019, 09:08 AM

Trying to use food to obliterate my emotions again. When will I learn that doesn't work? I just feel like crap for using the food.

April hurts.

Apr 01, 2019, 09:24 AM

Hugs, lost

Apr 01, 2019, 09:39 AM

On another note. It's National Poetry Month! I'm ready to get my poeming on. Day 1 of the poetry journal I got - the prompt is to write an "open" poem - anything about opening something physically or metaphorically or about the US Open etc etc. Here I go...

atisketatasket · Apr 01, 2019, 09:52 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

On another note. It's National Poetry Month! I'm ready to get my poeming on. Day 1 of the poetry journal I got - the prompt is to write an "open" poem - anything about opening something physically or metaphorically or about the US Open etc etc. Here I go...

Pandora’s jar?

stopdog · Apr 01, 2019, 09:53 AM

The portal to hell?

Apr 01, 2019, 09:56 AM

Interesting options....

stopdog · Apr 01, 2019, 09:56 AM

The pickle jar?

Apr 01, 2019, 10:08 AM

I opened up the pickle jar
Expecting I would find
A juicy pickle waiting there,
It never crossed my mind
That something else would dare appear.

But there it was, the tiny fork
That someone left behind
Swimming in the pickle juice
Alone and quite confined
Regarding me with silent jeer.

Apr 01, 2019, 10:09 AM

88Butterfly88 · Apr 01, 2019, 10:11 AM

That's cool it's National Poetry Month. It's also Autism Awareness month. Maybe I will combine the two by writing poems about my autism.

LonesomeTonight · Apr 01, 2019, 10:26 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

I opened up the pickle jar
Expecting I would find
A juicy pickle waiting there,
It never crossed my mind
That something else would dare appear.

But there it was, the tiny fork
That someone left behind
Swimming in the pickle juice
Alone and quite confined
Regarding me with silent jeer.

Apr 01, 2019, 10:31 AM

Artie is feeling silly heehee

ScarletPimpernel · Apr 01, 2019, 10:36 AM

T said she can't leave me a voicemail right now

I don't understand why not. It would have taken her the same amount of time as it did to write the email. Yet another thing taken away from me.

Good news is she told me she's having a boy! Now I know what yarn I need to buy. It's a blue ombre. I've used the pink and the "sea side" colors and they're beautiful! Super excited to work on that.

unaluna · Apr 01, 2019, 10:45 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

Artie is feeling silly heehee

Youre becoming quite proficient!

LonesomeTonight · Apr 01, 2019, 10:50 AM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

On another note. It's National Poetry Month! I'm ready to get my poeming on. Day 1 of the poetry journal I got - the prompt is to write an "open" poem - anything about opening something physically or metaphorically or about the US Open etc etc. Here I go...

What's the poetry journal? Now I'm wondering if I should try something similar, as I've gotten so far away from writing poetry. I did find a few lists of Poetry Month prompts online, so maybe I'll use one of those.

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