Couch 193: The Aurora Borealis Couch

You're not betraying your old T by feeling connected to new T.

Have you sold the house? If you need to save money perhaps you could do every other week. Will H agree to stop going to the hospital?

No. We just lowered the price of the house today by another $25k. We're trying real hard to get it sold.

H hasn't been going to the hospital lately. He's also stopped checking his bp and pulse. So he's being good there.

I can maybe reduce down to every other week. H wants me to go maybe once a month.

i just want to get away from myself

would it be weird if i sat around the corner of t building on Monday at my usual session time?

Eating again - I bloody hate this.

Ugh, I'm sorry. Is there anything you could do to make a little money to cover it? Weren't you guys thinking of trying out doing meal or package delivery, something like that? Or is L willing to adjust your fees or let you carry a balance for a bit?

But he still has that Tesla? Seems like he's sacrificing a great deal for a car. Speaks volumes.

I'm not sure why I'm still trying with baby T because I leave feeling like I wasted time but I'm going again today. Got my list of goals, see what he can help me do with that. I have one next week too and then I'm breaking/done with him. (Break for sure, but no idea how long)

I don't know if this would work if you're using insurance since I was paying out of pocket, but I just thought of it. for awhile when I needed to pay less L (funny we both have an L) let me do half-sessions for half her normal rate. That way I could still talk to her same frequency, just shorter sessions. Hugs to you, scarlet.

Hugs, lost.

I don't think so. After one of the ruptures I had with L, during the break before we "made up" haha I drove over to where her old office was the first year I saw her and sat there in the courtyard for a bit in an attempt to feel close to her again.

There is an insurance code for 30-minute therapy session--my T has used that for me a couple times when I wanted an extra session but didn't want to pay for a full one and once for a phone session when I was out of town. I pay initially out of pocket then get partial reimbursement from insurance, so not sure how it would work if you have a copay.

I love when I'm thinking, "Hm, not sure what specifically I should talk about in session today," then I start writing notes on things I could discuss on an index card and have filled up one side already...(granted, it's just a 3 x 5 card, but still...)

I keep dreaming about a crazy person that i cant quite reach, and i know its me.

What are you going to do once you catch yourself?

Can i post my kitchen hack? I keep trying to post it where i was inspired to do it, but it keeps messing up. There was a new OXO kitchen cutlery tray that had subdividers!!! in the dividers, so you could separate teaspoons from tablespoons from cream soup spoons all in one area! Well the new tray was too big for my drawer, so i had to retrofit my existing tray. I used divided spice grabber/holders. Viola!
Yes, the rest of the house is still a high holy mess, but THIS drawer looks beautiful. This is how i do things. I dont know why.

Be normal? Or is it like a cat chasing her tail?

I would love this, but H would throw them all in randomly anyway, as he does with our normally divided one, such that I have to dig through everything just to find a spoon for my cereal.

Ah! So did my mom! After my dad died, that is, and she had to do it for herself. I told her she was the only person in the world that didnt put forks with forks and spoons with spoons! I guess i lied! Oh, well...

It looks very organized. The spoons facing different ways would drive me bats - but we all have our organizational quirks

It drives me nuts how H loads the dishwasher, too. Like, "No, the bowls have to face inward!" And "Don't nest all the spoons, they don't get clean!" Meanwhile, most of the house is in complete disarray. I'm very selective in my organization. Though the dishwasher stuff is more OCD making sure dishes actually get clean stuff.

I went to sleep quickly last night, stayed asleep all night, and my dreams were well-behaved.

There were dogs in all my dreams.

No, your h is right in that!!! 🤯 Too funny.

Eta - per your correction, YOU are correct, the bowls have to face inward. But - if hes loading the dishwasher, it is loaders choice.

You could do an Active Imagination with that in which you catch yourself a la sd's question.

I don't remember any dreams from last night which is surprising because of who I called yesterday.