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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
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#821
In my grown up head at the moment. It's so strange not feeling the usual pangs of neediness.
So see you tomorrow. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
Anonymous43207, Omers, SalingerEsme
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Omers
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Jan 2017
Location: Here
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#822
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I hate myself. I'm seeing you tomorrow, how to tell you? Will you hate me? I'm so sad and ashamed |
Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, NP_Complete, Omers
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
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#823
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Anonymous45127, captgut, Elio, Omers
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#824
I am glad that I'm seeing you tomorrow. I really want to hear more about that ego stuff you were talking about last week.
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unaluna
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,734
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#825
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The main thing my T taught me was that you don't have to be nice to anybody.That it's okay to put yourself and your needs first and this applies to you too. You don't have have to answer his messages if you don't want to. Block him and don't think twice about it. But I would also suggest seeking out emergency contraception and visiting a sexual health clinic to get tested, but it usually takes around 2 weeks for anything to initially show up. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Anonymous45127, captgut, LonesomeTonight, SalingerEsme, unaluna
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,734
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#826
I kinda wish you'd reply to Monday's email already to confirm tomorrow's morning session. But ho hum I know you'll turn up anyway.
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Always in This Twilight
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Location: US
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#827
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Agreed on all counts. Re: health clinic and emergency contraception (I think you can take that a couple days after). They can also give high-dose antibiotics by injection that could prevent certain STIs from developing (like chlamydia or gonnorhea). I know you're in a different country, but where I am, you can just get the contraception from a pharmacy without a prescription.
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unaluna
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: the upside down
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#828
@captgut, you don't have to answer this guy. You can block him. Screw him. I'm sorry this happened to you. Is there a sexual assault crisis line that you can call to get some more information to protect your health and get some support?
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Anonymous45127, captgut, LonesomeTonight
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Roses are falling.
Member Since May 2017
Location: Cafe Nervosa.
Posts: 9,734
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#829
Never mind the previous emails. You’re obviously too busy to reply back.
I don’t want any more therapy and I’m not going to stop acting out either. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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Member Since Jan 2014
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#830
Last night was productive. We dug pretty deep, I felt safe and stayed present, I cried and you I am pretty sure cried a bit. I felt so comfortable and supported that I even asked YOU for a hug instead of the other way around. The only people I ask for a hug are my best friend and my husband and children. It was HUGE since the topic we were discussing is directly related to my abandonment issues. Usually I push away or at least feel horrible I certainly never would have asked for a hug. Today I am feeling very emotional and cant stop these horrible thoughts and memories. I tried to text this morning and haven't heard back. I hate that the nature of our relationship is just 1 hour a week. I know you care but this feeling alone sucks.
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LonesomeTonight
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Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
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#831
I miss you damit. Come back from holiday! Wednesdays suck without you
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LonesomeTonight
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Tweaky Dog
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Location: England
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#832
Feeling really fragile at the moment, on the verge of losing my words.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Magnate
Member Since Apr 2018
Location: UK
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#833
You know what? You f*** with my head. F*** you.
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#834
The answer to that question you asked me last summer I think it was? Is, yes. Apparently so.
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#835
Looking forward to tomorrow.
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Grand Magnate
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#836
Why is it I can go from feeling optimistic at one moment to feeling so pathetic and horrible less than 24 hours later. Thanks a lot.
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Poohbah
Member Since Jul 2017
Location: Somewhere
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#837
My t seems totally different. I just can't stop pushing people away. I have NO hope and I want to have no hope. I don't want to wish for a better future only to never get it. I t has to be me, I am the common denominator that makes relationships go sour. OR makes people hate me. This time, I am devastated, my T is acting different. I don't know if I just need to leave everyone alone. Maybe I deserve this, maybe I don't. I think everybody should leave me along so they don't get the negative curse I have on me. . .
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unaluna
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Location: CO
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#838
Thank you for being more clear and direct today about the dropping our Friday session. It's comforting to know that it's only temporary until the fall and that you want to go back up to 5 days at that time if I still want to at that time. It made me feel like you haven't given up on me.
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unaluna
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Roses are falling.
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#839
Despite the email if you do call me. I will pick up.
__________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#840
I don't know if bother reading my texts anymore but the one I sent today has me feeling a lot better. I have a sneaky suspicion you do read them just in case I say something about sui and you might need to cover yourself
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unaluna
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