Dear T: I really need to tell you something XLI

Echos Myron redux · Aug 26, 2019 at 02:34 PM

Hi. Love you like you wouldn't believe this week. Miss you intensely.

Lemoncake · Aug 26, 2019 at 02:42 PM

Dear R,

I dreamt of you last night.

I was supposed to have a session with you, but I ended up getting lost on the way despite leaving on time. I began to cry, after realising that I should have gone the other way, I called you in the end with 20 mins of our session to go. You said I never normally called you but we talked.

nottrustin · Aug 26, 2019 at 03:07 PM

So you never responded to my text from Friday which is actually okay. My weekend was horrible and I tried my best to stay present and somewhat busy. I texted you at a low point and told you it was okay if you didn't get it or respond. What I'd frustrating me is that you have not sent a reminder text about my appointment tomorrow and to make sure I am okay. I keep trying to remind myself is that it would not be the first time you sent the reminder text at dinner time even though it is normally around lunch time. The is a piece of me that is worried you are upset because of me texting you. That isnt how you have ever operated but what if it is now??

I also dont know how to approach what is going on. So much has happened and just thinking about talking about it makes me feel like vomiting, nauseaus, and light headed. It will take more than an hour to l do with but that is all I have tomorrow.

Echos Myron redux · Aug 27, 2019 at 10:38 AM

I neeeeeeeeeed yooooooouuuuuu

Lemoncake · Aug 27, 2019 at 11:03 AM

Should I ask for my session on the 29th back?

I have no words. I know I will just sit and cry.

I still have my exam on the 2nd.

You joked about offering a service to T's about their digital footprint - I know you've gone back to your hometown because I saw your mother's facebook post.

chihirochild · Aug 27, 2019 at 11:37 AM

Dear T,

I miss you. It feels like you’re the only good thing I have to go back to after this vacation is over. I don’t like needing you like this.

Not sure if I’ll have the courage to tell you this.

-c

SlumberKitty · Aug 27, 2019 at 11:43 AM

Dear T: it would be nice to see you today, but I'm okay waiting until the 4th until my appointment.

comrademoomoo · Aug 27, 2019 at 02:29 PM

How will I ever leave therapy with you now that I know you love me? Is this part of the trick? Do you play all your clients like this, is it your long game?

susannahsays · Aug 27, 2019 at 03:18 PM

I'm confused and that makes me scared and that makes me angry and so then I want to do stuff. I know you think I can control myself if I want to, but I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff and I've just lost my balance. Just teetering on the edge and a storm's brewing. I don't know which way I'm going to fall and if I fall off the cliff, will it be because I didn't try hard enough and just decided to fall?

I'm panicking and that isn't helping anything.

LabRat27 · 11:17 PM

I am very much not okay with you leaving for three weeks. It feels too much like spring of last year. I don't trust myself. This might be really really bad.

LostOnTheTrail · Aug 28, 2019 at 03:16 AM

Today's an odd anniversary - the cinema visit that broke the seal on this profound sadness. Three years.

Now it's mostly anger, but I don't know how to deal with that. Help?

Echos Myron redux · Aug 28, 2019 at 09:21 AM

Well that sucked. WTF was up with you today?

Lemoncake · 03:00 PM

You honestly didn't do anything wrong and I'm sorry, but I don't have words.

susannahsays · Aug 28, 2019 at 12:00 PM

I need something please. But I don't know what. So maybe I will send an angry text instead.

nottrustin · Aug 28, 2019 at 12:07 PM

I miss you!!

LostOnTheTrail · Aug 28, 2019 at 12:43 PM

I've submitted that poem.

Echos Myron redux · Aug 28, 2019 at 04:41 PM

Dear encounter group, thank you for being everything my therapist could not be today

SlumberKitty · Aug 28, 2019 at 04:43 PM

Dear T: Today I want to

Possible trigger:

die

and there's nothing you can really even do about it. I wish there was something you could do about it.

junkDNA · Aug 28, 2019 at 04:52 PM

I wanted to ask for a hug but I didnt

Maybe on Monday??

I'm glad I didnt end up in the hospital

Thank u for your check in calls

nottrustin · Aug 28, 2019 at 05:27 PM

I don't know what to think about when you made that awe type sound when I told you that part of how I got through the last few days was by emailing T everyday.

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Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,162 6 1,834 hugs given	Aug 26, 2019 at 02:34 PM #1 Hi. Love you like you wouldn't believe this week. Miss you intensely.
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Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,162 6 1,834 hugs given	Aug 27, 2019 at 10:38 AM #4 I neeeeeeeeeed yooooooouuuuuu
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chihirochild Magnate Member Since Feb 2017 Location: North America Posts: 2,360 7 4,865 hugs given	Aug 27, 2019 at 11:37 AM #6 Dear T, I miss you. It feels like you’re the only good thing I have to go back to after this vacation is over. I don’t like needing you like this. Not sure if I’ll have the courage to tell you this. -c
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 27, 2019 at 11:43 AM #7 Dear T: it would be nice to see you today, but I'm okay waiting until the 4th until my appointment. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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comrademoomoo Grand Poohbah Member Since Feb 2019 Location: Toodlepip Posts: 1,728 5	Aug 27, 2019 at 02:29 PM #8 How will I ever leave therapy with you now that I know you love me? Is this part of the trick? Do you play all your clients like this, is it your long game?
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LabRat27 Poohbah Member Since Mar 2018 Location: CA Posts: 1,009 6 2,354 hugs given	Aug 27, 2019 at 10:21 PM #10 I am very much not okay with you leaving for three weeks. It feels too much like spring of last year. I don't trust myself. This might be really really bad. Last edited by LabRat27; Aug 27, 2019 at 11:17 PM..
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Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,162 6 1,834 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 09:21 AM #12 Well that sucked. WTF was up with you today?
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Lemoncake Roses are falling. Member Since May 2017 Location: Cafe Nervosa. Posts: 9,734 (SuperPoster!) 6 10.2k hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 11:55 AM #13 You honestly didn't do anything wrong and I'm sorry, but I don't have words. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." Last edited by Lemoncake; Aug 28, 2019 at 03:00 PM..
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susannahsays Grand Magnate Member Since Jun 2018 Location: Somewhere Posts: 3,355 5 1 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 12:00 PM #14 I need something please. But I don't know what. So maybe I will send an angry text instead. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold
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nottrustin Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2014 Location: n/a Posts: 4,819 10 375 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 12:07 PM #15 I miss you!! __________________
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LostOnTheTrail Tweaky Dog Member Since Aug 2011 Location: England Posts: 4,819 12 3,150 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 12:43 PM #16 I've submitted that poem. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light Just hold on tight, that's all you gotta do...' Steve Earle - Fort Worth Blues 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin
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Echos Myron redux Magnate Member Since Apr 2018 Location: UK Posts: 2,162 6 1,834 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 04:41 PM #17 Dear encounter group, thank you for being everything my therapist could not be today
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 04:43 PM #18 Dear T: Today I want to Possible trigger: die and there's nothing you can really even do about it. I wish there was something you could do about it. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,149 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 04:52 PM #19 I wanted to ask for a hug but I didnt Maybe on Monday?? I'm glad I didnt end up in the hospital Thank u for your check in calls __________________
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nottrustin Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2014 Location: n/a Posts: 4,819 10 375 hugs given	Aug 28, 2019 at 05:27 PM #20 I don't know what to think about when you made that awe type sound when I told you that part of how I got through the last few days was by emailing T everyday. __________________
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