Couch 200: The Bicentennial Couch.

Does your building have security? CcCTV maybe you can get a look

I wonder if this is what's going on with me, too? I feel I've been sort of on the edge and falling apart off and on for the past couple months. At the same time, more expressive in some ways (discovering painting, for example).

I booked a few hours of work for tonight. I’m charging $20.00 an hour to sit on somebody’s couch while kids sleep. It’s 8pm and kids are in bed. Parents went out to dinner.

I suppose it is, CE, I just didn't know it going on 8 years ago when I first started.

Oh joy! Only 2+ years to go then!

I know I am. I had a dream that TOLD me that very plainly not too long ago even.

I think you are quite right about that. Signing up for the Belly Dancing class is part of shakin' those chains off, methinks.

Its a bird, it's a plane, it's a cigar? It's Captain Therapy!

Yes!! I love it!!

I’ve broken three T’s and a Pdoc, does that mean I am good to go with current T?

I'm confused, why would I expect to have a loan forgiven? I will be working in the tech industry, so I wouldn't have been eligible for such a thing anyway.

I need less than 5k. I have excellent credit. And if the absolute worst happened, I do actually have family I could ask for money to make payments if I ran into unexpected financial trouble. Anyway, I am very frugal and the loans I am looking at don't charge a fee for early repayment. I expect to be able to discharge such a small loan within the first 2-4 months of employment, especially since I would opt for paying interest off while I am still in school.

I'm going to sound my dad out first and see if he'll take the hint that I need more money without me having to actually spell it out, which I'm unwilling to do. But I need a backup plan. I have notified the roommate that I will be moving out.

Why can't I pick up the phone and call my T? He even told me on Wednesday that he sincerely meant it for me to call if I wanted or needed. I feel like it's too late, that it would update his time, that I wouldn't have a minute to myself to talk. Is 8pm too late? Probably. I should have called yesterday but I couldn't bring myself to. Now it's late tonight. Tomorrow feels stupid to call when I see him Monday evening.

Afghan for son's gf is coming along.... I'm really loving it.

The last two nights I have slept catless so ?I could have the window open. Tonight Kindle and Coal are having NO part of being locked out again... guess it is going to be a long, hot, Stu Kay, furry night tonight. Needy boys is NEEDY!

Can I just say that I really like L. A part of me wishes I could just stay with her. I asked her to write me an email before she left, and she did. It was awesome. So awesome that when I read it to my dad, he cried a little.

He thinks what she is doing with me is NLP. I don't know much about it. Something like neuro linguistic ____? Have any of you heard about it or your T used it. Might have to go look it up. I think it has something to do with hypnosis and Ericson? My dad is always talking about those three things. He's like in love with L...lol. He calls her Mary, for Mary Poppins: "practically perfect in every way"

These next 2 weeks are going to be hard. T in leave, L on vacation... I'm sad. I miss L already.

Artie -- you're reminding me that I'm slacking on T's baby blanket.

The one for your son's gf is beautiful! I wish I knew a pattern like that. You're so skillful! My next pattern I want to learn is chevron?

Hey guys, I haven't been telling you about all my H's stuff because I figure you're tired of me complaining about it and also not doing anything to stop/fix/prevent it. But I just realized something and I'm so so depressed about it.

So my H bought a Tesla model 3 for $40k last year. He sold that last month for $40k and bought a $50k BMW. He sold that for $40k and bought a Tesla model S for $89k. He then sold that for $80k and bought a $70k Tesla model 3 performance edition. Each time he sold a car, we'd lose about $10k in value. So this month alone we lost $20k. Poof! It's gone.

Now the really depressing point that I just realized is that that money could have been used for IVF. He values cars more than having a family. He values his wants over my needs. I have to fight to defend paying for therapy. I feel sick to my stomach over this. I hate him so much.

Please, I just want some empathy. It's so hard and L is on vacation and I don't want to bother backup T already.

Scarlet,
I would be upset too. My h did something similar with his car and 2 motorcycles - trading them in so he could have the latest and greatest.

My h has held his same job for 25 years though and works very hard. I think he's done trading in for now.

((Hugs))

Have you talked with H about how important IVF is to you? Maybe your h doesn't realize how much money he's squandered on these cars.

I am very familiar with NLP, Neuro Linguistic Programming. Feel free to PM me if you would like. I have some training in it and used to use it a lot. A good friend is a master practitioner.

ETA PMing about H is OK too if you need empathy.

Hugs, Scarlet, that would really upset me, too. If you end up seeing a backup T, this could be something to address with her maybe?

No comments but I've read your post.

So I've had a crush on one of my attendings basically ever since I met him. I think he might also have a thing for me (he came to my birthday party and brought me a really sweet personalized gift). After I broke up with my BF, I contacted him and asked if he'd meet me for coffee for "career advice..." we're meeting up this morning

Wish me luck and bravery

Have fun! And dress looks great on you!

So, my aunt and I are reconnecting and I am finding out all kinds of things about my parents (they divorced when I was very young and never talked about when they were together) and my early childhood. Oh lord! I though what I remembered was nutty! I need to write a book, but no one would believe it so I’d have to market it as fiction
If you are the praying sort you might want to send up a prayer or three for my poor T when he gets back from training... heck HE might even need pocket riders for this one!

At least it is all old enough stuff that I can laugh at it... but poor T... he is not accustomed to such things.

Cute dress! You look adorable, and you are already brave. I hope we’ll get an update after the coffee!

Good luck!

p.s I'm loving these dress pictures!

I had pictured you as much much much shorter and completely square, kinda like a minion. I dont know why. You are actually tall-ish for a female of the species! And quite lovely.

Awwww thanks y’all

It went well, I think—we ended up having lunch in addition to coffee (at his suggestion) so that seems like a good sign! I also agreed to let him know next time I’m going on a hike since he expressed interest in hiking around here. The only thing is that he also gave some really helpful suggestions about my research and now I don’t know how to navigate whether I want him as an advisor or a paramour. We’ll see!