Couch 206: The Hersilia Couch

Thanks Lemon. btw I love that nickname "Artie bean". Seeing it makes me all warm & fuzzy inside.

Artie, I'll be thinking of you and I hope it goes well and that you get a good outcome! HUGS Kit

I hope the PCP writes the letter. That's the kind of stuff they are there for!!! Hoping you feel better soon! HUGS Kit

Hi @StressedMess I hope the training goes well! I hope you love the new role! HUGS Kit

I had a T appointment last night. It went way better than last week. She was much more "with it" and she remembered a lot of stuff about me. I hesitated about bringing up last week and I ended up chickening out. She was expecting to see someone else last night at my appointment time so when I got up in the waiting room when she came out she was surprised. She was like, oh they (I assume the receptionist) had someone else on my schedule for today. So I was instantly a little uneasy thinking she was going to be wacky again but the rest of the session was good. It was hard to have something to talk about since I'm not in crisis. So I talked a lot about work. Figures I would have weekly appointments when I am not in crises but when I am in crises I can't get an appointment. What kind of baloney is that?! Hugs to anyone who wants one!

At work, I figured out the job costing was wrong because the engineer's hours weren't being recorded to the jobs. So I talked to the owner about it and she confirmed that the engineer's hours needed to be billed to the jobs. So then I fixed the general journal entries to put his time in. Then I had to tell the controller that I probably messed up the reports she already did. I was worried she was going to be upset with me, but she wasn't. She was like "good catch!" So I feel better now. I was worried all last night about that! I constantly worry that people in general will be mad at me. I think it is a remnant from my childhood where my Mom seemed constantly mad at me. I never know how people are going to react when they are mad so I'm always nervous and scared about it. I'm glad it turned out okay. Hugs Kit

That's a useful connection to make, Kit. I'm impressed that you figured out the issue, and got it fixed. Hope the rest of your day goes well.

Thank you @LostOnTheTrail! HUGS Kit

Thanks Kit!

I'm glad to hear that your session went better than the previous one!

And we begin Day 10. Just when I think it might be slowing down a bit, it starts up in earnest again.

No response from therapist yesterday. I should've just not sent the email. I wonder if he'll remember we'd planned for a phone check in today.

Sending hugs, NP. I hope he remembers.

I have been watching too many pomp and circumstance videos. I have had Zadok the Priest stuck in my head for last few days.

I was taking a little break from reading the couch but wanted to share this little funny snippet from the 4 year old boy at work.

Him: Jersey can you draw me a truck?
Me: I’m not very good at drawing so I can try but it may not look like a truck.
Him: Can you draw a car?
Me: I can try but it may not look like a car.
Him: A boat? Can you draw a boat?
Me: I can try... (draws a boat)
Him: Jersey, if we are going to be friends you have to take an art class.

He emailed and is going to call in about an hour. I feel like I don't really want to talk now. I guess the time and distance has begun to affect me. I doubt he even saw the email I sent yesterday. I feel pathetic for having sent it.

You're not pathetic, NP.

HUGS @NP_Complete you are NOT pathetic. I understand feeling differently after some time has passed. I have been there, done that. I hope that when you do talk to him that it goes well and that you feel better. HUGS Kit

I'm hungry. I'm glad it is almost lunch time.

I wish lunch was going to be something more exciting than a sandwich though....bleh

That's too funny!

Not pathetic, NP....I hope the call goes well.

I hate when I have some big revelation on the way home from T... Though it was partly his fault for bringing up a big topic with 20 minutes left...Sigh...

T in 4 hours. Pocket riders definitely welcome. I will toss in some snacks

I'll hop in Artie! Wishing you a good appointment! HUGS Kit

That will be 12.30am here lol but thinking of you and hoping you get something positive out of it.

Maybe thats how The Little Prince guy got started! Jersey, that is such great news. Sounds like you guys are connecting.