How To Move On

So after giving myself a couple of weeks to allow the emotions to settle I sent him an email yesterday explaining exactly how hurt and upset (without being accusatory or angry) I was about what had happened in hope that it would somehow help with closure. It hasn’t. I’m still wanting him to suddenly get in touch to check that I’m ok and tell me that he cares which is ridiculous as he wouldn’t have even done that when I was his client let alone now I’ve terminated. I’m still thinking about him every day. I realise now that I had really begun to see him as a parental type figure and was much more attached than I thought and feeling let down and hurt by him is just bringing back so many feelings from being a child.
I just want to forget him but I can’t.

Give it time, honestly. It's still very early days. I grieved for my former T for more than a year and that was a healthy ending, with good emotional closure. It will be harder for you but it's possible and in fact I would say the only healthy way forward, as painful as that is. It's natural that you want to hear from your T and long for his love and care. It's hard to accept that this likely won't be the case. Be gentle with yourself and trust that you will get through this. If there's any way of seeing another T (I can't remember if you mentioned this) maybe that is an option? I saw someone else to help me with the grief over my former T.

I agree with all of this, including looking for another T. I’d say it took me a year to fully deal with/accept terminating with ex-MC. It was ok at times, then the sadness would come back at various times. I feared I’d never fully get over it. But...I think I’m like 99.5% there. But it takes time. It’s a grieving process. It can help to accept that, to not be hard on yourself.