Couch 212: The French Vanilla couch

I found out recently that my hashimoto's has been acting up again and my thyroid hormones are all out of whack, doc is working on getting my meds adjusted. I think we've got them where they need to be now, but I won't know for sure til my next blood test in a month. She said it's possible that surgery last spring knocked things off-kilter and my T4 has been decreasing (and TSH increasing) since then, but I just didn't notice right away because it was a gradual kind of thing. When I started noticing all the symptoms coming back that I had when I was first diagnosed I called the doc. I don't remember what my T4 was when i got it checked last month but I recall my TSH was almost 7. Yuck. It's just amazing to me how that little gland can impact so much in your body!

I wish being drunk wasn't so delicious and avoidant.

Omg the baby girl was so cute.

I've been eating too many shnacks too.

The teeny things do add up to something in the end.

I'm glad your doctor had helped you get it back under control.

Also how have the belly dancing classes been going?

I love her sooooo muuuuuch!!!!

Oh cool. Good to know. My younger brother's looking for work and I'm the most "experienced a recent interview" person in my household. And I know really little though Ask A Manager has been a great resource.

I'm feeling muted. Hmmm. I'll have to think how to proceed with this feeling.

SO much fun!! Thanks for asking. I rather suck at it still haha but it's really a blast. It's such a body-celebrating form of movement, that it totally gets me out of my head, down into my body all the way to my toes and I think about nothing while I am there - just moving my bod, groovin' to the cool music they play, and laughing with everyone else at how bad we all are lolol oh and enjoying watching our instructor demonstrate moves in real time because she's so graceful, sensual and expressive it's just amazing to me to watch!

omg my T just called me to ask me if we changed our session time .i explained that i will see her at our usual time of thursday at 3 .she apologized for the mess up and asked me what day it was etc...she confirmed she would see me thursday .then about 10 min later she called and we proceeded to have the same conversation over again . i told her last thursday that i wanted to stop seeing her .i wanted that to be our last session but she convinced me to come back and terminate the right way and not just leave .what the right way is i dont know i just dont need the guilt and her tears etc ...

Wow @granite1 that sounds really difficult. HUGS if wanted!

@granite1 - the 'right' way is the right way for you. You do not have to be bound by the 'rules' of someone who has treated you so inhumanely.

Oh granite this must be so difficult for you, I'm so sorry.

Hashimoto's is progressive, so it's not unusual for it to get worse, Artie. You should definitely have it checked regularly. I've had it for almost 17 years now and my thyroid has been completely destroyed, unfortunately. However, the amount of hormone I need can still fluctuate based on my weight. My PA was making me come in and get it checked every two months for the past year, but now we're back on every 6 months (I think that's the standard).

Thanks, yeah I got it checked every 3 months for awhile then they went to the 6 month thing, but it's been a year now - they've had turnover at the dr's office and stuff and I guess I fell through the proverbial cracks. I'm not going to let that happen again... in fact after i get it checked in April I'm going to ask the dr to check it in 3 months again just to be sure we're back on the right track.

Granite, can you let your MD or someone like that know what is going on? Or your H? Someone needs to find out who your t's caretaker is, and let them know what is going on, and tell them to take you off her client list. Erase your number from her phone!

You do NOT need to be dealing with her issues. Period. She has one foot in and one foot out. Im guessing this is retraumatizing for you. Call a lawyer. Somebody. End this with her.

I came home to new cat vomit on one of my course textbooks.

I believe this is her comment on all my late nights lately due to our job search.

Fortunately we meet to make a recommendation tomorrow and it will all be over.

Good action post.

And block her number from your phone or her email or anything. It might seem mean, but you don’t need this and you are not her caretaker.

closure is for you as the client and mot her. If you do not want to go you don't have to. You can just email or leave a message and that is ok. In the time I have been here you do not seem especially helped by her. You are entitled to do what helps you.

It is great that she did not want to abandon you. My t didnt want to abandon me, and that was very important. But its okay for us to leave. Thats kinda the point? Even if we dont articulate it until later.

Thats my story and im sticking to it.

I’m reading a book that collects weird things customers say in bookstores. My favorite so far is the customer who asks did Anne Frank write a sequel?

I feel like I should write one about things customers say. Yesterday someone asked me if I had a name. Not what my name was but do I have a name.

No sir, they don't allow names here just numbers lol

Our server isn't working properly today at work. I'm able to access what I need to access but my CFO in NY isn't able to remote in, so poor thing, she keeps emailing me and Skyping me and asking me questions. I try to reassure her she isn't bothering me, which she isn't. I know it must be hard for her too.

I am struggling with something today so I sent a text to one of my friends from Church and possible trigger for Christianity practices . It was really lovely and made me feel really cared about. One good thing Pastor T has done is help me set up this group of women that I can text or call and get support from. It's nice to not be so alone with things.

Former T finally emailed me. It was so good to hear from her. She said that the way the ER doctor treated me was pretty bad and that while probably nothing would happen, hopefully his attitude would change. She did think, like I have begun to think, that being hospitalized wasn't such a bad thing for me. It put some things into perspective...that's for sure. I see regular T on Saturday. I don't think I'll tell her about the email from former T. I don't want her thinking anything weird. Besides I have enough to talk about with Regular T. Pastor T doesn't like that I only see Regular T every two weeks. I think it's okay. Sometimes I wish it were more often but when I'm not in crisis I think it's enough. When I'm in crisis though, it's not enough.

im seeing a temp T who is helping me with this issue .it is so hard because i know it is got to be age and health related for her .she is just not with it . but tomorrow i see her i am going to have to set a stop date .maybe 2 more sessions or something because she will keep wanting to see me for some reason . she has helped me as much as she can and we are so far off as far as what my needs are at this point i think she is doing more harm then good .i feel worse after i see her and that isnt a good sighn