[hopealwayz]

In the past few weeks, my doctor saw the real picture and this is what he thinks-
ADHD, Panic Disorder, Bipolar disorder, and PTSD.

I’m glad that he got a better picture but I’m scared to go to my appointment tomorrow because he may throw me out.

[hopealwayz]

After my meltdown, it will take courage to show my face there again.

[sophiebunny]

You always think he's going to refuse to see you and yet he always sees you. I suggest you look at history. It's the best predictor of the future.

[Omers]

Hang in there! You have made SO much progress lately!

[Misterpain]

Originally Posted by hopealwayz

In the past few weeks, my doctor saw the real picture and this is what he thinks-

ADHD, Panic Disorder, Bipolar disorder, and PTSD.


I’m glad that he got a better picture but I’m scared to go to my appointment tomorrow because he may throw me out.

Never be afraid of a doctor throwing you out,because eventually they all do ,nothing lasts forever, don't live in fear of something inevitably you will experience .nope it's not fun nor easy ,but it's being realistic ,fo in with Your head held high ,if it happens (!`%÷= is very normal ) but eventually you will move on and find someone better , I am unfortunately an expert at hitting and firing doctors ,even the great ones who stand by you for many years ,eventualy lose intrest in a particular case or doesn't feel challenged anymore , yes that sounds avid crazy because your money is the same as anybody elses,however when a doctor stops feeling challenged they tend to not do there best work and sooner or later there skills sugger,and trust me electronic health records are a tedious button pressing nightmare, an endless maze of boxes to click on and document care ,so when they don't feel challenged the box checking insanity makes them question what there doing ,on that note I have a personal example in my life that is a head scratcher , my uncle was an architect he made plenty of money to support his family but he was bored so now he struggles to pay the bulls and works long hours that he doesn't choose as a corrections officer ,dis son was in the air force stationed up in mass watching radar ,the only thing they ever saw was a low flying golf ball so after 18 years he left the aur force and is flipping burgers , had he stayed two more years he would have a pension for life to retire on ,like father like son , the moral of the story NO Fear expect to be fired it's nothing personal ,don't let it be personal ,it will screw with you if you let it ,and will grow into insecurity and self doubt and eventually you will cling to doctors in hopes of never going through a breakup,that insecurity will drive future doctors away ,and it becomes a vicious cycle of self doubt and unreasonable expectations .

[hopealwayz]

He said that he will be my doctor through my life changes.

And he doesn’t plan to go anywhere.

I just don’t think he’s ever saw me that crazy and I’m humiliated and don’t know what to say.

[hopealwayz]

Sometimes I don’t know if I am strong enough.

[Crook32]

If you are crazy we are all crazy so don’t think like that. He chose to be a psychiatrist and has stuck with it. Believe me he has dealt with worse. Just try and keep your head up. Good luck.

[hopealwayz]

I’m battling the urge to skip session today.

I didn’t get much sleep last night and sitting there for the session seems unbearable right now.

[hopealwayz]

I need some encouragement.

[divine1966]

Where do you live that you still have face to face therapy sessions?

As about him not seeing you because you have issues... by definition of his profession he is working with people who have issues or he’d be doing something else for a living. I’d not worry about him dropping you as a patient for that reason.

[hopealwayz]

My car finally got fixed so I’m driving now.

I’m am SO tired right now like I may literally fall asleep on the couch.

Oh well, he almost fell asleep one time during a session.

[divine1966]

Originally Posted by hopealwayz

My car finally got fixed so I’m driving now.

I’m am SO tired right now like I may literally fall asleep on the couch.

Oh well, he almost fell asleep one time during a session.

Is he seeing patients for therapy NOW, face to face? No one else does. Numbers of infected people must be very low in your state.

[Gettingitsoon]

My therapist gives option of telehealth or live sessions currently.
She has her own private office in a building with only two other therapists who are not seeing patients right now.
So, very low traffic and alot of chlorox wipes on doorknobs, and distance in office.
I like having the choice.

Hope, please have session today. Your doc has helped clarify your challenges. Now let you help work through them. He's not kicking you out.

[quietlylost]

Here's a little nudge of encouragement. Remind yourself why recovery is important to you and how treatment can help you get there. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to know that you're valued. You deserve to be able to get the support and care that you need to be successful.

It sounds like you have a provider that is willing to work with you. Don't let your anxiety about the "what ifs" and the stress of actually facing your issues be a reason to fall out of care. It's easy to fall into that pattern, which in the end only sustains all the negative things that got us there.

Hang in there. You can do this!

[hopealwayz]

I just got out. I feel better now.

I’m so thankful that I have him as my doctor.

[zoiecat]

Please go to your appointment Hope. Eventually all psychotherapy is going to be virtual only. My psychiatrists office has been closed for 2 weeks now. They are only providing refills by email or phone messaging. We can't even talk to them in person. Take advantage of the appointments while you have them.

And yes, your T has seen the worst of the worst. Most psychiatrists start out training in a hospital setting and they have seen it ALL by the time they reach private practice. Don't be embarrassed.

[hopealwayz]

Yeah he said next week was going to be virtual. They didn’t have people in the waiting room. They waited in their cars.

[hopealwayz]

Things are excellent with my T. I actually feel relieved that he saw my manic episode and now understands more.

I am so thankful for his patience. He is an excellent T.

[hopealwayz]

It was a humiliating experience though. I don’t even remember everything. My T and my family were telling me about things that I don’t remember.

I still have to talk to my T about what triggered it. The only new thing that happened was Effexor XR but I’m not sure if that triggered it but it’s possible.

That was probably the worst episode since I’ve been with T so he has seen me at my absolute worst.