Couch 218: Northern Minnesota 2050

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 01:05 PM

Lunchtime. Earlier Penelope was sitting next to my desk wanting me to pet her (she loves having her head/neck rubbed) and so I was obliging her of course, being in training mostly just listening to the presenter on my headset. At one point I had to stop and type something so while I was typing, she actually jumped up on the arm of my chair and meow'd at me haha because I was ignoring her!! She has NEVER done that before. Maybe she'll become a lap kitty yet!

LonesomeTonight · Aug 25, 2020, 01:13 PM

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Originally Posted by chihirochild

Ugh. I'm taking my boards on Friday (which is a $3,000, 10-hour experience) and I have to give a lecture (which I haven't finished prepping for) and do my ACLS recertification on Thursday. T's irritated with me and I'm furious with him. I've still only heard back from half of the fellowship programs I applied to (though it's been less than a week so I probably shouldn't panic yet). My stomach has been hurting for weeks, ever since I restarted my MAOI. I don't know what to do about J. The secretary for the doctors at my hospital is a complete moron and keeps messing up my schedule so I am not starting regularly scheduled non-backup work until mid-September. I feel like I'm wasting this time off by being lazy and depressed instead of working out and enjoying it.

I'm overwhelmed and anxious and mad and I just hate everything.

Hugs, Chihiro, that all sounds incredibly stressful.

LonesomeTonight · Aug 25, 2020, 01:15 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

I have an intake appointment with a psych NP (no relation) today and I'm really nervous. P had a chat with her yesterday and said he likes her approach. I'm afraid I'm going to trigger myself by talking to her. It's a long appointment too, 90 minutes.

Hugs, NP, I hope it goes well. But I understand why it would be really stressful. Is it online or in person? Dr. T also does 90-minute intakes, so maybe it's a fairly common thing to do?

LostOnTheTrail · Aug 25, 2020, 04:48 PM

Have you ever experienced a session where you've spent the time talking about one thing, and later realised you should have focused on something else?

I'm in that situation at the moment.

SlumberKitty · Aug 25, 2020, 04:50 PM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Have you ever experienced a session where you've spent the time talking about one thing, and later realised you should have focused on something else?

I'm in that situation at the moment.

Oh gosh, yes, many times. HUGS. Maybe you could write about the something else? It might help to get it out of you.

ElectricManatee · Aug 25, 2020, 04:53 PM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Have you ever experienced a session where you've spent the time talking about one thing, and later realised you should have focused on something else?

I'm in that situation at the moment.

Oh yes, I've done this many times. And then next week feels so far away. I'm sorry you're going through that right now.

LostOnTheTrail · Aug 25, 2020, 04:54 PM

Thanks, Kit. HUGS

I'll take it to my journal tomorrow afternoon/evening. It's a recurring thing, but then...anniversaries are.

atisketatasket · Aug 25, 2020, 05:00 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

I have an intake appointment with a psych NP (no relation) today

The “no relation” part made me laugh. Hope it went well.

I am sitting in on an English lit class this semester on the pandemic or plague as a literary device and we’re on Zoomflux. One of the other students is in a noisy environment and so putting her discussion contributions into the chat box. They’re very obviously lifted from the internet. The boldness is kind of breathtaking, since we can all see them.

SlumberKitty · Aug 25, 2020, 05:12 PM

I'm definitely starting to see COVID 19 as a plague--not a pandemic, although I don't really know the difference between the two, just plague sounds worse! I am SOOOOOOO missing hugs, and SOOOOOOO missing getting together with friends. I'm an introvert and if it's bothering me this much I don't know how my sister and other people who are extroverts are coping.

SlumberKitty · Aug 25, 2020, 05:13 PM

It's so hot here! I can't wait to go home and get into my much cooler jammies. At work I'm actually kind of dressy today except for my tennis shoes. Long sleeved flowered top, black, and black pants. With a black shirt underneath. Not sure what I was thinking this morning! Lol!

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 07:24 PM

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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail

Have you ever experienced a session where you've spent the time talking about one thing, and later realised you should have focused on something else?

I'm in that situation at the moment.

Yep. Too often.

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 08:04 PM

So I looked up pricing for prev pdoc on our insurance website and because my deductible isn't met yet one freaking appointment would be almost $300. Um, no dude. I think I'll talk to my gp and see if she can prescribe me a prn or something. Or I'll work harder at controlling this anxiety myself. More drumming, more swimming, more walking.... $300 indeed. Yeesh. That's too much.

unaluna · Aug 25, 2020, 08:07 PM

Holy carp! Thats shock treatment!

Daffydungle · Aug 25, 2020, 08:09 PM

Another unexpected benefit of stopping lithium my night vision is so much better, and a situation which would have caused me so much anxiety i wouldnt go before was only a tiny bit anxiety provoking and it disappeared quickly. I think i may have been misdiagnosed.

Daffydungle · Aug 25, 2020, 08:15 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieTheSequal

So I looked up pricing for prev pdoc on our insurance website and because my deductible isn't met yet one freaking appointment would be almost $300. Um, no dude. I think I'll talk to my gp and see if she can prescribe me a prn or something. Or I'll work harder at controlling this anxiety myself. More drumming, more swimming, more walking.... $300 indeed. Yeesh. That's too much.

This why i believe good mental health is only for the rich at least in my country. It cost $600 for an intial pdoc appt here and you only get 240 back from the govt. They wont reduce there fees for people on pensions and refer you to the local health service but they only take acute cases so there is a large population who need meds but cant access them. It makes me so angry. I dont want a hand out but an arrangement that doesnt mean i dont eat for a month.

Daffydungle · Aug 25, 2020, 08:16 PM

Sorry Artie for stealing your post for my soapbox. I hope your gp can help.

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 08:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Daffydungle

This why i believe good mental health is only for the rich at least in my country. It cost $600 for an intial pdoc appt here and you only get 240 back from the govt. They wont reduce there fees for people on pensions and refer you to the local health service but they only take acute cases so there is a large population who need meds but cant access them. It makes me so angry. I dont want a hand out but an arrangement that doesnt mean i dont eat for a month.

It's insane. When I saw him like 8-9 years ago or whenever it was it was nowhere NEAR that outrageous. Apparently he has been busy making a name for himself or something I dunno.

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 08:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Daffydungle

Sorry Artie for stealing your post for my soapbox. I hope your gp can help.

It's all good!

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 08:39 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Holy carp! Thats shock treatment!

No kiddin'!

ArtieTheSequal · 09:13 PM

I just spent some time working on my discussion post that's due tomorrow night, so that's done. (eta about basic and applied research and the differences between them and some other stuff). Apparently this prof doesn't leave the discussions up for everyone to see. That's a bummer, because I so enjoy reading them and I didn't get a chance to read everyone's last night before she blocked them from us! In all my other classes we've been able to read them through the entire semester. Oh, well. Now I need to start on the current assignments...

stopdog · Aug 25, 2020, 09:22 PM

Have you tried qi gong? I think it is worth trying before using the drugs they prescribe:

or even check to see if you have a qi gong group in your city. We do and they are doing meetings online right now.

MobiusPsyche · Aug 25, 2020, 09:48 PM

I took a video of my tremors and I sent it to my sister and my best friend. Both responded with "it's no big deal, you can hardly see it!" Which, I get they are trying to be supportive but it makes me feel like they're telling me I'm being a hypochondriac or making a mountain out of a molehill or something.

So I was relieved that my pdoc did not have that reaction when I showed him the video today. He looked at it and said "Hmm...I can see it...we definitely need to go off the Abilify." So that made me feel better, that he didn't downplay it. He has a pretty iffy bedside manner but today was good.

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 10:30 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Have you tried qi gong? I think it is worth trying before using the drugs they prescribe:

or even check to see if you have a qi gong group in your city. We do and they are doing meetings online right now.

I have not. I agree with trying a lot of things before I go back on meds. I really didn't like how they dulled my feelings. We all know what a feeler I am haha. Thanks, I will check that out.

eta: wait, maybe i did one time with my drumming peeps - we did something like that but i can't remember if it was that or something else.

ArtieTheSequal · Aug 25, 2020, 10:32 PM

i absolutely love that music. i feel my entire body relaxing already just a few seconds of it.

chihirochild · Aug 26, 2020, 07:26 AM

Went for a freaking walk because it's freaking good for me.

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