Couch 218: Northern Minnesota 2050

Tis a good point!!! might be!

H just went to bed because he has a caffeine headache, he's trying to drink less mountain dew and didn't have any today. I totally sympathize, I remember when I still drank soda those darn caffeine headaches were the worst.

Just poured glass 3 so I will probably have a hangover headache in the morning lol

I wish I understood why I keep running away from therapy. I'm not going to do that this time. I am determined. No matter how much it hurts. I think this stupid ****ing video therapy is actually turning out to be a GOOD thing for me with the way L is being so much more directive. Part of me hates it like heck, but another part of me knows it's necessary and hopes that she doesn't pull back just because I bawled like a ****ing baby today. God I hate that I am so pulled to this. I have to keep going back. I have to finish this. I HAVE to.

Somebody PLEASE tell me not to send a durnken email to L right now. It's alltyped out. I haven't hit send yet. Somebody please tlel me not to.

I deleted it. I think I'm safe from sending it now. I wrote it all out in a word doc.

cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool whip

sorry couch. i know i'm annoying and a brat of the first order and everything else. i'm so ****ing needy and pathetic.

i don't wnat to be this way. i don't.

how is it possible to feel so mcuh pain and not even know where it is coming from

You're not. Hugs

there is not enough wine to dull what i am feeling right now

Hugs. I understand this well. Sometimes it just is. Some pain can only be carried.

Oh boy.

College students are adults (even though so many of them are still learning to act like it) and should be allowed to choose to follow the guidelines.


My uni is committed to in-person classes. I like seeing my classmates in person. I don't like having to wear shoes and the commute is so much longer than the one from the living room to my work space. My sons' university and community college are both online only for the fall.

thank you. SO much.

Art, you are lovely.


Are you still drumming? I still remember you offering to send drum vibes to Couchies who needed them, and I am pretty sure you sent some my way.

thank you WFS. I was just looking at my drum actually because it's right next to my desk. But my thougths included i am notworthy of the peace it might bring me. perhsps i shoudl pick it up and drumfor myself anyway.

all i want to do is cry right now but i cant'. stupid huh.

Friend and I found rice cooker recipes for banana bread (I LOVE it but haven't had in years) and brownies!

Partner: I am not sure of how rice cookers heat up its content, but I would never allow that type of dough-based cooking at home. That just sounds... risky. O.o

I told him he's never used a rice cooker in his life. Trust this Asian! xD

Article from a white guy might convince him?

The pot and how to use it | Roger Ebert | Roger Ebert

I could use a little peace myself, sweets. If you do decide to drum, send some my direction.

P.S. You deserve the good things.

Dear Artie, you deserve peace. You deserve comfort, you deserve soothing.

We had a Japanese student make a cake and a cheesecake in our rice cooker. Oh yum, I should try that...it's been a while. Thanks for that, QM...what a good memory that brought back.

Hugs

i did pick up my drum and drummed for a few minutes and sent out peace and good thougths yourway. thank you for being here. so much. so very much.

i THINK that mahbe, just bmaybe that's whaty L was ttrying to tell me today. thank you thank you. i wish i knew what i was facing here. i really do. i think it might hlep if i knew what it is that iam so afraid of.

egads ihave lost the abiltiy to type hahaahahahahahaha

ability! HA!