Couch 239: Cape Coral Couch

I'm glad you're OK, NP.

Oh, yeah. I forgot about the Zoom thing. It just comes out "automatically" so I don't think about it.

I wonder what she does for the rest of her clients. Although I think she said in the past that she mostly talks to clients on the phone and I know she is seeing some in her office. (But her office is over an hour away from me.)

My son and his gf had been planning on leaving around 8am this morning, but he texted at like 5:20 this morning saying they were running behind and now not leaving until 11, in about an hour from now. We're heading over there now to help with any more last-minute stuff and to see them off.

Well, the kids left about 2 hours ago to start their big new life adventure! I bawled like a baby when I hugged them goodbye. H even got a little choked up. Son is supposed to text me when they get to their first stop tonight but it will probably be late since they got such a late start, so he'll probably forget. They have a 9 hour drive today, then 2, 6+ hour days before they arrive in their new town up north. I'm so sad. Excited and happy for them still, but so sad at the same time.

I'm trying to remember what we talked about in therapy on Saturday. I know we talked a bit about if I am anxious before the sessions, or nervous. I said sometimes, especially if there is something that I want to say.

At one point (we were talking about specific numbers like 6, 7, and 13--I know that sounds random but a good friend of mine just spent the night in the hospital and was on the 7th floor and when my T was in Vegas this last time she was on the 13th floor) and I was talking about how some numbers were either good or bad. And she said that it sounded like a Kit thing. And then later she came back around to see what I thought of that statement. I said that what I thought she was saying was that it was something unique to me and not universal. She was like, oh good, so you didn't think I was calling you crazy or anything? I was like, well, no.

And I know we talked some about hallucinations and when I see Pdoc next. And I was saying how some of my outside supports (friends/family) haven't been as helpful lately. She followed up really quickly with what do you find helpful? So I thought that was good that she did that. I guess the session would have been okay had it not been for the technical difficulties on her end. But, I am glad that I talk with her tomorrow.

HUGS Artie.

I'm sorry you had technical difficulties on your session. But glad you get to talk with her again tomorrow.

My oh-so-helpful mother just texted me back after I told her the kids left and told me the story of how many years ago, a bunch of my dad's coworkers left their company for a start up that folded in a year and they were all out jobs and couldn't go back to where my dad stayed cuz they'd all been replaced. WHY does she think I need to hear that particular story right now?!

I hope my T texts me back.

I hope she texts you back and soon so that you don't have to wait.

I hope so, too, and that it's helpful.

Hugs, Artie. That is the opposite of helpful! I hope your son remembers to text you tonight.

The numbers thing can be a part of OCD--I'm surprised she didn't mention that as a possibility. Or at least say that many people have the numbers thing, not that it's something unique to you (which sort of could imply that it was weird).


I have OCD and have always had certain numbers that I consider good or bad. I used to be rather strict about it, like I couldn't buy 4 items at the store--I either had to put 1 back to have 3 or get something else to have 5. (But then if, say, it was a 3-pack of something, I could count that as either 1 item or 3.) And other things like that. And 13 for me is bad--so if, say, I'm buying something online (and can see the total before I finalize the purchase), I might change things if the total has 13 dollars or cents.

I feel like you're clinging a little too tightly right now. I know your baby is flying the nest, but that's what kids do and he's left the nest before. He's just flying a little farther this time. He's got this. Even if he loses his job, he'll be fine. There are other jobs and he can always call you if he needs some help. Don't forget to breathe, Artie.

Thank you LT. To be fair she has brought up OCD before--she wants to talk to my Pdoc about it. Pdoc seems somewhat willing to talk to her but he's skeptical that there is anything of value he can add.

I told her how if I am traveling behind someone and I can see their license plate, if it has a "bad" number, I might have to change lanes. So I'm with you. HUGS Kit

I am still waiting on a response from T.

I wrote my own responses to me in an email. Like I wrote the questions and I wrote the responses. Then I emailed it to T.

I don't know if it was helpful but I know I am not going to engage in a behavior tonight that would not be healthy. I reasoned myself to that end. So, I guess that was successful. Now only if T understands the email.

Ok can i be honest i dont want to go and have coffee, or even talk much to my neighbours (which i have avoided for 5 years now ) is because they are extremely rascist and i dont want to get into an uncomfortable situation, because you know these people just dont see reason. I feel like i am being mean because they want to be nice but honestly i draw the line at rascism which is why i was so uncomfortable with the majority of my ex's family.

Hugs to people struggling. I wish everyone inner peace, like it is that simple.

Am i being unreasonable with my neighbours i feel like i should be more forgiving. I hate these time when i am struck with spiritual crisis.

If they're racists? Then, no, you don't have to be more forgiving toward them.

Thanks, LT. His gf already texted me about an hour ago from where they stopped for dinner in Thousand Palms, CA. That was sweet of her.


You're right, I know you're right. Thank you.

It's just, too fast. Life is going to fast. I have let so much of it pass me by. I'm already 60. Where has my entire freaking life gone?!

Sending you love artie bean.

❤️

Thanks sweet Lemoncake. Right back atcha.

I am drinking a white claw black cherry hard seltzer. I am also wondering where this delicacy has been all my life. Yum!

As if I did not have the situation in my thread to deal with, today the Faculty Senate met. I had a live captioning ADA accommodation request approved and the staff agreed to honor it.

They did not. They used autocaptions (it was obvious). At the end the guy in charge came up and said, “hey, aren’t they as good as live captions?”

No, my dude. They are not.