Couch 239: Cape Coral Couch

The Dermatologist signed-off on me being able to donate Plasma, hopefully I will be able to donate as early as tomorrow.

I thought it goes for about 2 weeks.

So sorry, Velcro. Hugs if wanted.

Thanks guys. I just feel so much for my friend and her family. It is terrible.

Hi Friends, I hope everyone is doing well. I haven't been on here much the past few days. I don't know how many days. Been triggered by everything (Not anyone here) so I just have been kind of chilling in my own head. T is on vacation. Trying to resist the urge to email her. We'll see what happens. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit

*curls up on Couch, whimpers*

Big internet hugs for all couchies who are hurting.

Kid started online school today, cautiously optimistic about it. Feeling like a weight has lifted, but also waiting for the other shoe to drop, if that makes sense.

Take care of yourselves.

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Had my 6th weekly call (of 8) with cbt coach yesterday after work. We've been a good fit, been having good conversations, but she kept calling me sweetie yesterday. ugh, because the last thing i want is to start getting all maternal transference-y over here!! I've decided I'm not going to continue with the program for another 8 weeks because if I did, I'd have to choose one of the other 2 subjects and I am not struggling with either of those. So it's just as well. I'm just gonna finish out the last 2 weeks. I think she said I can still use the app after, so that's good. I also got a dry erase board and some markers at the dollar store last night, that I hung on the wall in my office to write daily reminders on and stuff so I can keep these gains going.

Yawn, I've been starting at 5 all week doing OT, heading to bed another early one tomorrow. Night couchies!

The colleague whom I was in mediation with is someone I have to communicate with regularly. At the mediation that was formalized as mainly email communication (which we were already doing, so why did we have to have mediation?).

Anyway I have been keeping those emails formal. Salutation, proper sign off, brusque and businesslike to set a firm boundary between us. She has been emailing like we used to—lots of jokes, emojis, informality. As though we were still friends—though she quite clearly told me we were not.

I’m keeping to the formal style in the face of this, but god her poking at the boundary is super-annoying.

I'm sorry, @@.

That is ridiculous - keeping up appearances in a situation like this seems pointless, unless she is trying to ingratiate herself somewhere. You'd hope that wouldn't be the case, though.

Take care,

Lost

That would be quite annoying. I would be tempted to just tell her there was no longer that sort of relationship -but I am not long on patience and you seem to have more of it

I just got the book/portfolio I made of L's house I designed! It's gorgeous. Sad and funny thing, I spelled something wrong! Luckily, L doesn't mind errors. I'm planning on giving it to her tomorrow. I hope she likes it.

It’s a curse.

Either that or I’m a modern-day Job.

Hi Couch,

If T asks you to check in after a difficult session, the expectation is that you'll be honest about how you're doing, and not brush it off...right?

R asked me to let her know how I'm doing after yesterday's session, which got pretty intense.

Yes. Good therapists want to know how you feel, even if the answer is "not good." Hope you're recovering after the intense session and being gentle with yourself.

Psyching myself up for my dentist appointment that's in 2 hours, to get the filling done... I'm bringing along the little stone owl L gave me a little over a year ago to hold onto... I know it's just a filling, should be no big deal, not like I've never gotten them before, and that I'm being a big baby about it but dang it I'm super nervous and will be dragging myself in there. I also now understand that by putting it off for 6+ years I've let my fear grow waaaaay out of proportion, and just going back last week and getting the xrays done has already lessened it just enough that I know I'll be able to drag myself back over there today...

Back from the dentist. It went pretty well, I got there a few minutes early so I could sit in my car and do the progressive muscle relaxation thing before I went in which helped. Holding onto the little owl helped too. Now that the filling is done, I'm feeling more confident about going back for the crown. They're not going to schedule that though until after my cleaning which is scheduled in mid-October.

Glad it went well, Artie. HUG

I would think that your T would want you to be honest.

ETA: This makes me think of a time when ex-MC called me a day or two after I texted after a medical test, saying I was concerned about the results. He called and asked how I was doing. I said I was OK. He said, "No, not the answer you give to be polite--how are you *really* doing?" By that point, I'd gotten the results, which were fine, so I actually *was* OK. But I appreciated that he was asking for how I was truly doing. I'd think R would want the same from you, Lost.

Also glad it went well, Artie!

Yes, I think honest.

I'll give a caveat though. If you are feeling unsafe but you don't want to go to the hospital, don't say you feel unsafe. If you need to go to the hospital and you know you need to go to the hospital then say that. But you know yourself. If you don't need to go to the hospital but just feel crappy and cruddy, then don't be brutally honest.

That said, I know your T wants to really know how you are. Just like my T really wanted to know how I was today. I was brutally honest but added, I don't need hospital.

Well my all-time favorite musical- "The Phantom of the Opera" is closing in February after 35 years of performing on Broadway.

I saw Phantom on Broadway in approx. 1989. It was great. I remember being so impressed with how the boat appeared to actually be moving on water. Worth my one and only trip to NYC to see it. My dumb *** boyfriend at the time spent all our extra money on a Rocky Horror Picture Show book and we had to walk back to the airport though.

I know a number of people who have seen it on Broadway, I've seen a few different productions of it before but never on Broadway.