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Okay, so I've been working with T for a year and eight months now.
It has been a fruitful if somewhat volatile relationship. There is a very deep and charged transference at play as well. We are at a point in our work where I feel like I'm hitting a wall. I've been in this place before. It feels like a huge resistance magnet that is pulling me to stay home tomorrow. I know I won't but I have an incredible urge to call in sick. (LOL) I WANT to be angry at him. I WANT to tell him to go jump in a lake. I think this is the point where I have to acknowledge my grown up self and let her take responsibility for the child within. As a result of last week's tension, T and I acknowledged the existence of a deeply wounded little girl inside of me. The depth of her grief is much more than I thought. T and I together will continue to explore her pain. At the same time, I am realizing that this is my life now. My life here with my children and my H. In the now, I am mature, safe and competent. And a mature, safe and competent woman can take care of a wounded little girl. Right? ARGGGHHHHHHHH ![]()
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well...yes and no. yes you do get to mother your own wounded little girl and that will bring healing and some comfort if she lets you and you are able to reach her. at the same time her pain is your pain because you are her. so sometimes you will not be able to self soothe or she may not be reachable. I started doing that work 2 years ago and realized how much I can be there for her. But sometimes the pain is too great.
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