[Rapunzel]

Not only do I not get to see her this week, and I really need to, but I'm jealous. She said she noticed the signs and decided to take a week off before she does something stupid. Why couldn't she do that on a week that I couldn't come? It's not fair!

What's really not fair is that I am so desperate for a little time off, and I can't take time off because I'm behind on everything because I can't finish stuff when I can't concentrate due to too much stress. And I'm behind on internship hours because of losing my clients when I thought I could push through the depression and keep going anyway (and stress, and not having enough time, etc.) And T knows I'm pressured with work and school demands, and she doesn't seem to think that I should be able to take time off.

But I hate being mad at her. She should at least allow email, but she won't, and I don't want to bother her when she needs a vacation, even though I need one too, and also need her. Oh yeah, and it's rainy this week too. That always makes everything worse. Even though it was warm yesterday and fairly warm today.

[Kiya]

=( Sorry rap that things are not going so hot for you right now! it isn't right that t should model something different than what she makes you adhere to.

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((((((( Rapunzel ))))))))))))))))))

[Rapunzel]

(((((((((((( Kiya )))))))))))))))

(((((((((((( Gimmeice )))))))))))

Thanks for understanding. Sometimes we just need a safe place to throw a fit.

well.. if it helps, i am STILL in the T-vacation blues. So, you got company.

you sound like me too... the pressures from career stuff and being so stressed, needing advice and support. Me too.

im sorry it is this way. Damn T's. Do what you can as you can, love... i'm taking tiny bits, i'll never get it ALL done.. but i'll get something done at least.

take care

[Rapunzel]

Thanks! I appreciate the company. I ought to be on the way now to go to T, and it doesn't feel right, and part of me is screaming what if I misunderstood and she really is there today, and I am supposed to go! I want her to miss me and care about me as much as I want to see her. I don't want to wait another week!

i got 3 more days... 17 down

[Mouse_]

I get to see T on monday at this past weeks break...I have struggled this week and normal I fall apart once I am back in T ..but this break I've felt as if I've been just about getting through it.....I'm supposed to go to work tomorrow, but the thought off work is just to much for me and I phoned in sick this afternoon and will not go back to work until tuesday..its the only way I can hold onto some peace of mind until monday...I want to hate T for doign this to me, but I also want to feel love for her,,its these two thoughts that are crippling me...I want someone to attack me because it will feel better then the feeling of being attacked I feel from within right now......to be able to hate someone and love them at the same time is like some medieval water torture...amen