[Kiya]

T gave me a major severe ***** Kicking tonight =( Totally harping on all my *favorite* subjects (note sarcasm):
dating, jobs, career, life.
While I'm at it ,let me go get a nice cianide shooter - be less painful.
I've never seen her this adjitated before and just for extra S**** and Giggles, I clearly can't spell tonight.
I kept thinking "Who spit in HER bean curd?!?!" Good lord it's gonna take a good week to recover from this one.
*sniff*

[Rapunzel]

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[Fuzzybear]

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[SingleGirl]

sending hugs!

your therapist sounds like my old hairdresser, every time I went, she started on me about all the things you mentioned above...

i've cut my own hair for the last 2 years... ha

so @ least you are stronger than me in that you keep going back to your therapist!

be well, feel better soon, hugs

[Kiya]

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thanks
yeah - she's never done this in the 8 months i've worked with her. I was totally shocked. I know her points are valid - that i need to live an active-participant life rather than an avoidant life.... but some warning would have been helpful. I even pouted, I was so stunned. =( I don't want to go back!!! I mean, i will. But i don't want to take more of that!

[gimmeice]

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It sounds like you had a rough night.

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Sometimes T gets a little stern with me and I kind of like it because I feel like he's taking care of me and looking out for me. I really have to be in the right place emotionally when that happens, though, and it's really rare for him to do it.

How are you feeling about it today?

[Kiya]

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I am still licking my wounded pride. i know she cares. she just seemed suddenly fierce and demanding and i wanted to run away. I didn't know it was "pick on kiya" night. or i would have stayed home!

=( grumpy

awww sweet cakes... i'm sorry.

sometimes it happens that the moods, etc are mismatched, or maybe she had gas... whatever, it just means it was her day to push and you weren't ready... chitty deal for you in the end and it hurts. My T has this expression "striking the iron while it's still hot." Ugh... %#@&#! gag me. It never ever works when he does it... but what he is trying to do is keep the progress going (when i actually make any).

you obviously trust her because you know she cares, etc... and that is HUGE... i don't know what your trust level was like when you started but i would think that is likely a sign of progress... maybe she felt she could push because you've been making progress...

im betting she cares so much and worries about you that she got a little ahead of herself... wanting to help. Sometimes their efforts are too much for us... T says that sometimes he pushes me and sees that it was too much or too soon but he doesn't have a guidebook.

try to take an objective look at the things she did say.. and look for the parts that you *can* address right now instead of the whole enchilada all at once.

hope you feel better soon... sending much love

((((Kiya)))))
I'm sorry it hurt so much! Maybe it was a therapeutical technique or something or maybe she was in a bad mood. I'm sorry you were the target, though. You are taking it well, BTW. I can see that you are still planning on going to next session. And your relationship with T will still be there

[MissCharlotte]

Awww Kiya,

Tell her to BACK OFF!!!



Sorry it was so difficult. When T acts like a jerk it's hard to accept their humanity, isn't it?
It sound like she was nowhere near close to where you were and the gap between was huge. I hate it when that happens.

[Kiya]

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thanks. yeah, i am still feeling wounded. Grrrrr. Puprosely not writing her when I am supposed to send email updates. Like a cat with it's back to it's caretaker, flicking an ear and licking a paw. "i can't hear you".

The session was already weird because the time kept getting changed all over the place and even up to the point where i got there; she had me meet with her for like 15 minutes to "get connected" then had a board meeting where i sat in the lobby, then we met again (i was really confused for a bit) for an hour and she lit in to me! I think she was in a good mood - but all fired up! She's usually half asleep for the late evening apnts.
I guess some warning would have been nice.

[kessa19]

I'm glad you're willing to go back and didn't automatically direct all the negative on yourself. Although you're understandably hurting, you're also being rational about it and you can still hold onto the fact that she cares about you. Great job dealing with this. I hope you can discuss it next session.

**Here is an example of how NOT to handle this situation...
I probably would have went into a tail spin and would have called T incessantly telling T " I know you hate me but I don't care because I don't like you either!!!"
I'll have to re read this post next time my T has a bad day or challenges me so I don't jump to conclusions!

[Kiya]

Heh - I did finally email her about something else which turned into a rant and i said something like "and don't get on my case about _____ cuz I don't care and I'm not interested!"
*sheepish grin*. I do imagine it will come up next week (mind you, not by ME!)
Kiya