Hey everyone, I am fairly new to this group/site. I have Bipolar Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder preventing me from really living my life. I am on disability and never really leave the house. I choose to stay inside and away from the public because I am also delusional and I cut myself.

My main concern is this; My pdoc of 4 1/2 years said that I need to get into therapy now because the medications alone are not helping me. So I know I cant do group therapy, and I was in one on one therapy for 3 sessions and it just got way to personal for me.

My question would be; What am I supposed to do now??? I mean, I obviously cant goto therapy and stuff, I dont know what else to do???

Thanks
Mikey/PA

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Mikey,
Sorry to hear that you are struggling. I found one-on-one therapy way too intense for me when I first started. I didn't like the fact that I couldn't bail out of a conversation like you can in other settings. I felt like there was a lot of pressure on me. But I forced myself to endure it.

Do you have anything you can use to motivate you? In my case I used my kids as my motivation. When I was agitated, scared, frustrated and simply just wanting to quit, I though of them and how much they needed a decent parent. I think a lot of people would say that you are supposed to put yourself as the priority, but I can't do that at this point.

I think you have to do whatever you can to get yourself some help. For me the first 9 months of therapy was almost unbearable, but I simply forced myself to go. At one point I thought I was being sadistic and using it to engage in mental self torture. But slowly my T was able to forge a connection with me and I actually like going now.

Enduring the intensity of it has been so worth it.

Maybe you can simply try it again. Maybe set a goal for yourself like... 10 sessions. Say no matter what happens I will force myself to make it through 10 sessions. Hopefully then your T can work some magic in that time and make it less stressful for you.

[gimmeice]

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I agree that maybe you should try therapy again, I didn't like therapy at first either and I had to also force myself to go to each appointment, now I am glad that I did.

[Perna]

There are different types of therapy; I would explore a behavioral-type one that might help me with some of the more uncomfortable aspects of social anxiety. They're not so "personal" so might not be as upsetting, especially at first.