[splitimage]

My T's off to cape cod and then France on holiday for two weeks and then I'm off to Berlin for a week so it'll be close to a month with no therapy. My next pdoc appointment isn't until I come back from Berlin and my addictions dr. who I like least of the three is so booked up that I probably won't be able to see her either until after the Berlin trip other than in group sessions.

I'm kinda stressed about this because I'm having major urges to drink when I'm berlin. I'm 99% certain that I won't, but I'm still feeling very vulnerable.

The only good thing is my T's possible trip to Africa for a month has been postponned - It was supposed to be right after her france trip. Now it looks like she won't be going till Oct. which at least gives me some time to mentally prepare for the break.

On a positive note - at least I'm saving lots of money, which I need, thanks to this break.

Just feeling a little disgruntled.

--splitimage

[romanjames2004]

Hey,

I really know how you feel. I have been unable to see my group T because of insurance. I just try my best to do stuff relaxing and fun. For example, because I am home alone I sit back in my back yard and take a a nap or I read on the couch. Or try to do things with any friends or family. Go see a movie or go to eat dinner. I am going through a depression and since I can't get on medication just yet, I try to make every day "worth living" as I call it. See if that sort of helps you out. Good luck, you wll make it.

Roman

[Simcha]

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My T's off to cape cod and then France on holiday for two weeks and then I'm off to Berlin for a week so it'll be close to a month with no therapy. My next pdoc appointment isn't until I come back from Berlin and my addictions dr. who I like least of the three is so booked up that I probably won't be able to see her either until after the Berlin trip other than in group sessions. I'm kinda stressed about this because I'm having major urges to drink when I'm berlin. I'm 99% certain that I won't, but I'm still feeling very vulnerable.

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It's always hard when you are bored and sad and don't know anyone that you are close to (if anyone at all), surrounded by strangers and strange things. Recovery is one of the toughest things I have ever seen anyone go through. Don't forget that if you go back to the way it was, you will never feel better about yourself. Never quit. The bad times always pass. Are you in AA? If so, do you have a sponsor you can call if you need to? If not, I think the AA website has a hotline via phone and internet (not sure though). Internet is always 24 hours... internet cafe's all over Germany, esp. Berlin, and always open. You should most definitely make use of the internet while you are away and T is inaccessible.

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The only good thing is my T's possible trip to Africa for a month has been postponned - It was supposed to be right after her france trip. Now it looks like she won't be going till Oct. which at least gives me some time to mentally prepare for the break.
On a positive note - at least I'm saving lots of money, which I need, thanks to this break.
Just feeling a little disgruntled.

--splitimage

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I feel that one too.. financial CRUNCH! Only I'm biting the bullet and in crappo debt. But... I realize it will be short lived, and things will go back to normal in no time flat. ! You remember that too, and that's an order Private!! (sorry, just watched a military movie) -Sim