[Typo]

Okay so today was my first thearpy session...it was nerve wracking and educational. I'll start from the begining since it just adds to the fun of the story.

So I wake up at 10:25 this morning in complete horror that my alarm didn't go off like it was supposed to so I run around like a crazy lady, grabbed my make up bag because I had to take a picture for my student id later and high tailed it out of the house, fyi the thearpist office is a thrity minute drive. Needless to say I was incredibly lucky I didn't run into any police officers along the way because I was breaking the speed limit like it probably has never been broke before. I had to park a good distance away and ran the whole way to the office and busted through her door panting and sweating. LOL I was absolutley terrfyied but I couldn't help but giggle at the way the morning had went, I think it was a subconcious plot to get out of thearpy.

I really like my T she is really nice and understanding, She gave me time to catch my breathe before we started on paperwork. It was only my first session and I already have homework from my T, I'm supposed to journal about three emotions I fell that is connected to my unexpressed grief, she gave me a worksheet that has emotions on it and it kinda of looks like a coloring sheet, which makes me want to color it, and she says when I feel more comfterble she would like to see my exsiting journal along with my assigned journaling, which makes me weary because I didn't bring up my si or alcohol issues up at all...and my journal makes big loud statements about that...

OH and she wants me to get started on some meds for my deppression and anxiety, which means I have to find time to schedule a doctor appointment, no matter how good looking my doctor is I still hate having to go to the doctor....

I see her again next week I think on wensday at 10 in the morning...still nervous but I really like her and I think this is going to work...
Just wanted to let you all know and update everyone.
I do feel good though, I kinda of feel like this big pressure has kinda of been lifted off my shoulders...

You did it! I am so, so proud of you!!!!!!

Don't worry right now about the SI and the alcohol. I know I felt at the beginning of therapy that I needed to tell him everything right away - but now I know that it's okay for things to come out over time. There's no pressure.

I'm so glad you like her, and you have your next appointment lined up. That is great news.

[mel4]

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Silversparrow said:
I kinda of feel like this big pressure has kinda of been lifted off my shoulders...

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So glad to hear that, Silver!! Hopefully this is an indication of good things to come.

PS. I think that the 'late-to-therapy' sprint could be an Olympic event in its own! There's nothing like working up a good 'ol sweat before therapy! We've all been there
---those aren't tears, they're enormous pre-T beads of perspiration being frantically wiped off the brow hahaha

[Typo]

Oh gosh mel4 I agree, I had to run a good distance, I think we should take the late to thearpy sprint and propose it as an Olympic sport, let's see Micheal Phelps bet all of us here lol!!

Earthmama, So it's okay to let some stuff come out on it's own?? I feel better now that I know that, I just didn't think it would be apporatie to just dump everything on the poor woman on the first session, I'm bad about the whole cross that bridge when one gets there thing, I'll probably stress and feel guilty about it until I do tell her.

[Sannah]

Hi Silver, good news! I am so happy that it went so well...

[Kiya]

yay!!! alright!!! Gold star to go with your Gold medal in the Sprint category! =)
I find it funny that we all are like "I don't want to dump everything on the poor woman on the first session (or ever)"
i'm like that with my t also... and the more i add, the higher up her eyebrows go lol.
YAY for you!!!!

[Typo]

yeah, my t's eyebrows raised quite high when she read the section of the paperwork that said what I was having issues with, I put down
severe anxiety, mood swings, bouts of deppression, flashbacks, nightmares, and problem sleeping. If only the poor lady knew that was only the tip of the Silver iceberg.

[MINIME]

good job

[purplebutterfly]

(((((((((((((Silversparrow))))))))))))))

[Ltr2Hermione]

Hi Silversparrow!

Whew.. good job in getting there! Your description of the chain of events really gave me a good mental image.. especially when you say you busted through the door panting and sweating.. lol

The hardest part is getting started.. isn't it?

I've been 6 months with my T, and I've only been bringing up my drug abuse in "passing". He asked some "matter of fact" questions such as "is that your drug of choice", but didn't take it further than that.

I notice that as the comfort level builds, my tongue tends to loosen.

I'm glad you like your T right off!

L