[emilyjeanne]

My T is on vacation. She comes back on Tuesday and I have an appointment. But I have been struggling all week. On Tuesday, I decided that I would call the covering PDoc (I do T with my Pdoc) and ask for something for the nightmares. So I called my T's machine to get the covering doctor's information. But there is no covering doctor. T is covering herself. The message said that she would be checking her messages once per day. But I don't want to bother her on her vacation. I don't want to be seen as needy. So I have not called. Yesterday was particularly bad. I disclosed some of my history in group therapy. Someone made a sarcastic remark and everyone started laughing. Except for me. I didn't think it was funny. Last night I started spiraling downhill. Bad dreams. Unable to sleep. Felt self destructive. I want to call. I don't know if I can.

[Kiya]

Go ahead and call, k? If she is "covering herself" then that means you can call and she will answer when she can.
Take care of you!!!
Kiya

[emilyjeanne]

Thanks for your support. I am still struggling with calling. But I think I will call.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( emilyjeanne ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

First of all, I'm so sorry about what happened in group.

Second, I really think you should call your T. You are struggling, and she would want to help you. If she wasn't able to cover for herself, she would have someone else doing it. I know it is hard to call, but Tuesday is still really far away if you are feeling that bad.

[DePressMe]

Hey EJ, Ts are here for us, they expect that we will occasionally need them. If we did not need them, we would not be in therapy.

I am sorry about your group experience. I can understand why it would hurt if everybody started laughing about something you disclosed. Remember, sometimes people laugh or make sarcastic remarks when they feel uncomfortable. Maybe you were hitting a button for them. Please, don't think I am making excuses for them--I am not. I think group work can be some of the most rewarding therapy options available to us. I really, really, encourage you to go back to group and tell them what you felt when they laughed. Don't just let it go and feel bad about yourself. Make a change and tell them how you feel and how their comments and laughter effected your life. That would be a great growing opportunity for you. It would take a lot of guts, but I bet you can do it. And, I bet the group members might take a look at how their behavior affects others, so you would be helping them grow too.

[MINIME]

Call its better to call then to let it get worse.

[emilyjeanne]

Hello. I still haven't called. But I'm going to try today. I am so conflicted.

[MissCharlotte]

(((emilyjean)))

My T has been away since mid august and I see him on tuesday for the first time in 3 weeks, so I know how you feel and how hard it is. I have felt sick from it!

You are not alone! I'm reaching out to you >>>>>>>>>