[Christina86]

I do. I do indeed. But I'll do the homework - THIS TIME.

She gave me cognitive distortions handouts/diagrams/sheets to do to begin to realize my distortions. Darn, I feel a bit messed up.

She also told me I'm too sarcastic. But in a nice way. But it still hurt. I know all about rationalizing my issues, and I can do that very quickly...

But why is it that emotional stuff is icky and hard to figure out?

Also saw my pdoc in the waiting room. He's lucky I forgave him. :P (He double booked me with another "Christina"! He can say that since there are thousands of students at my university) He's so funny and apologetic. I cant be mad at a man that makes me laugh.

Like how I find it hard to be mad at this T, because she's good. She gets me. But maybe is a bit tough on me. Or I wore my heart on my sleeve today. Cried. Thankfully when she was out of the room, photocopying sheets for me. Ha. I win the war - I hate people seeing me cry.

My head hurts. Too much to think about running around there. I feel kinda emotionally raw - and it bugs me a lot.

[pegasus]

Lovely CBT ay!

I disagree with what your T said about sarcasm, which is a form of irony, which is a clever use of humour. Not something that needs to be got rid of. I have very dry humour and my T has always found that endearing!

Anyhow, I totally understand your head hurting, take extra care of you.

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by Christina86

I feel kinda emotionally raw - and it bugs me a lot.

Well.... as they say... misery loves company. Can i get you a drink? soda? snack??

[Christina86]

((((((((((Pegasus))))))))))))))

CBT is hard. I hate hard.

Problem with my sarcasm (as she put it) is that its hard to tell when I'm telling something truthful versus laughing it off or saying something sarcastic to hide the truth. I know I sometimes do it... but I never knew how icky it was for others.

My week has been hard. I was already told I'm too "angry" and that my emotions are too large and that I complain too much and that I make a place I hang out at (with friends) too "toxic". Sad thing, it made me sad and mad simultaneously to be told this. Not by my T, but by another "authority figure".

I'm just having a very hard emotional week. Can they teach emotional bottling? that works out better for me

[Christina86]

Yum. Snacks and soda. Woah. Thanks (((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))

I hate feeling so ... unsettled. Blargh.

[Slippers]

The fun part of CBT is when you start noticing OTHER people distorting. Like family, friends...better still would be catching your therapist! You would totally score 10 points doing that!!

S

[Christina86]

That could be fun. I sometimes notice things like that... I blame the fact I'm doing my BA in psych though ... how can you know so much, and yet be incapable of fixing your own problems? Idk. Dont get it.

((((((((((Slippers))))))))))))) thanks

[kim_johnson]

> how can you know so much, and yet be incapable of fixing your own problems? Idk. Dont get it.

why... because sometimes it isn't a matter of reason

[darkrunner]

((((((((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Sending hugs and happy thoughts your way. I'm sorry it's been such a yukky week for you. I hope it gets better soon.


ktgirl

[Christina86]

((((((((((kim)))))))))))))) So right you are!!

((((((((((ktgirl)))))))))))) I hope I have a good weekend, and the same to you!